Sara R.
8 wks til surgery!!
Nov 01, 2011
Wow! I am getting closer :) my nerves are still getting to me and it is literally the only thing on my mind. 2 months will go by so quickly. This week i am going to start weather proofing my house and getting everything organized, especially with the holidays approaching, i will have no time. My grandma has agreed to help watch my son and my dog! :) yay! 2 less things to worry about. one of my roommates will be out of town and my other roommate has agreed to take care of the cleaning, dishes, etc. for at least the first 2 weeks. :)I have been reading posts on OH and Gastricsleeve.com to prepare myself for post op eating, pain and lifestyle. Its hard to take it all in. but i am doing my best to stay positive and to stay alert regarding my habits. I really hope that practicing healthy habits now will help me in the end. I am not doing the best at practicing healthy lifestyle skills but i am thinking about it more which i hope will help me eventually do it.
Upcoming appointments:
11/12 Nutrition (5/6)
11/16 Preop nutrition class
11/21 Cpap SD card download
12/1 Pulmonary Clearance
12/2 LAST Nutritiion :) :) :) (6/6)
12/5 Submit to Insurance for Prior Auth!!!
12/28 SURGERY!!!!!!! :):):)
Everything is getting wrapped up. The insurance specialist at my surgeons office feels confident that i will get approved. I have met every guideline and jumped through every hoop for my insurance and my surgeon. I am still nervous because i hear people still get denied. I am trying not to think about it and send those negative vibes out into the world. Positive thoughts!!
My son is very excited for mommy to become 'meteor', his cute word for medium. i try not to let my size interfere but sadly over the years i have not been as outgoing as i have in the past and he is feeling the brunt of it. once i get going with weight loss i plan and hope to be more outgoing and adventurous so i can show my son the world! He is only 5 and so curious. I am concerned about the 'mood changes' that i have heard happen after significant weight loss. I am very moody now because of the sugar withdrawals and frustration with being overweight. I dont want my son to see the grumpy, short temper, up and down moods that go along with post op hormone changes. Does anyone know how long this lasts?
I finally gave up my grave concern for hair loss and accepted it as part of the process. I did research and talked with other sleevers and decided it was a waste of time. there are to many factors, all of which i cannot control as to why hair loss occurs. I will however do what i can control, which is proper nutrition.
My coworkers and family are very supportive but i almost wish that i hadnt told anyone. I am still very worried that i will not succeed as well as others have. and to have to face them all after i fail is going to be unbearable. But when i do succeed i will feel great and powerful and confident. The reason i believe this is obviously because i have failed before, and obviously not had much of any success in this area of life. I need to continue to remind myself that i WILL succeed and i WILL be a healthy weight for life.
I WILL SUCEED!!!
One of our fellow OH sleevers wrote a great post about will power and how it can be exhausted. This was very interesting to me. i have heard all my life to eat small meals throughout the day so you arent tempted but i never connected the dots that will power and eating small meals throughout the day were connected. It makes sense of course but i just thought it was so you would feel full and not indulge or overeat but of course with me, it doesnt or didnt matter if i was full, if i needed food for soul or there was something offered or available i would eat it. I have been working incredibly hard since i decided on the surgery and a little bit before surgery to deal with this issue. Like listen to my body, am i hungry, tired, stressed, emotional about whatever, or am i truly hungry. i would rate myself 7/10 or about 75% better at distinguishing and following through with the proper reaction. of course there are bad days and good days but overall i am much improved. I am very proud of myself for this! :) It is a huge accomplishment. When my will power is exhausted when i have done other diets i have noticed physical and mental fatigue. Will power is such a huge player in this weight loss game. So, if i eat properly pre and post sleeve then i will have a means of recharging my will power. Its like putting my phone on the charger, each day i eat properly i recharge my will power. pretty cool analogy huh?! i think so :)
This last paragraph is for female adult eyes only. I have always had large amounts of vaginal discharge. Sometimes it smells and sometimes it doesnt. I was so annoyed for the last 5 months or so because it was really bad and the doctors kept telling me that i dont have an infection. I started drinking more water instead of soda or juice because i want to get better at that now, i also have more energy and it helps my headaches when i drink at least 48-72 ounces of water per day. I have noticed the last 2 weeks that the better i am at getting water in and not drinking soda or alot of sugar that the smell goes away! i can make it through a whole day and not have to change my clothes right when i get home because i cant stand the smell :) soooo excited i figured out the issue without meds or some crazy remedy. JUST WATER!! :)
