2 months post op

Feb 28, 2012

Today marks 2 months post sleeve. I have lost 30 lbs exactly. A little bit slower than i expected but better than the typical 0lb loss. I also have been going up and down the last two weeks, struggling with the same two pounds. Last week i started back at the gym, the gym is 40 minutes from my house so i was seriously procrastinating and making excuses about going back but its free for me through my dad. I even tried to make a gym in my garage and then my spare room and then the living room but even having it stare me in the face i was making excuses. So the gym it is. I started the couch to 5k program, today is the start of week 2. Boy was i sore last week. I really enjoy running and the rush it gives during and after the session but my hips were killing me. i was walking around like an old lady with hip replacement lol.

My clothes are getting pretty baggy. My waistline is starting to show itself again and my two pairs of jeans are almost too baggy to wear. I am to stubborn to buy new clothes though. and maybe even a little scared too. i dont want to go try new clothes and be disappointed that im only 1 size down. So i am going to wait another month to go shopping and pray i am down to an 18 or 16 so i can shop Old Navy! :) No more Lane Bryant! yee haw.

Eating is a struggle. Some days i want to say effe it. I dont even want to eat. Its almost overwhelming sometimes. I dont want to be on a diet. I dont want to feel deprived. For the most part i eat what i want and its not junk but its also not low carb. This probably is a major partner in the slow weight loss. Eating out is hard also. Why are portions so big? Even if i cut it in half and save a good portion of it i still cannot eat very much of it. Im at about 1/2 cup size portions still. My son can eat more than me.  My boyfriend is always wondering if i dont like the food. I could probably a slightly larger portion if i ate slower maybe??? That is also very difficult, eating slow. im hungry, i want to eat but then after 2 bites im full. its a little irritating. Its much more difficult than i anticipated it to be. I have not been able to take my multivitamins, every time i try they make me vomit. vit b12 and iron i am a little more regular with. I get about 48-64 ounces of water each day and about 40-50 gms protein each day. i dont deliberatly track the other numbers except i regularly see about 700 cals per day.

i am losing my hair, its pretty slow but more noticable than before. My skin is incredibly dry also. I was never a lotion person, not even on my face. But now i am a lotion carrier and put it on regularly everywhere on my body. and sometimes i still have dry scaly skin on my legs. I also have a scratch on my leg that is not healing and i think it has to do with the dry skin. I am cold all the time. I used to sweat like a maniac just walking up and down the hall at work but now i have to wear a sweater. I went hiking sunday and did a very difficult trail up here in washington. it was a pretty cold day, i was wearing 3 coats. i started sweating after 1 hour of intense physical activity. Sooo unusual for me. I dont know if i could attribute this new fact to the 30 lb weight loss or to a slow metabolism or even to dehydration?

I still deal with a fair amount of head hunger. Last night i dreamt of ruffles and french onion dip. When i get stressed out i tend to turn straight to food or think of it at least. sometimes i am able to work through it. I also have the best boyfriend, i can talk to him about anything. its great. i want to read the book 50 ways to soothe yourself without food. i think that will help me alot. An unusual book that has helped me is Dont Sweat the small stuff in love. Alot of the tips can be used in everyday life as well.  In May i am hoping to start back at the counselors to help work through the residual issues.

In 3 weeks i am going to learn to ski. Something i have never done before in my life, mostly due to my weight and fear of breaking something or being able to find the right clothes to wear. I am very excited to be breaking out of my own restrictions.

Overall i have made really good progress after surgery and have goals to make bigger changes in my life. Eventhough the weight loss is slower than i was expecting i am still happy i chose surgery and im sure each month i will have more and more victories to tell everyone. I have also uploaded some recent pictures. maybe ya'll can see the difference but i cannot see the difference yet. sometimes i can in my clothes but not in my face.

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