6 weeks until surgery!!! :)

Nov 16, 2011

Its getting closer! :) So excited. Last week i posted comments from my mom, grandma and coworker. Last night i mentioned how excited my son is that i will be medior after surgery and my dad just looked at me with so much fear in his eyes. I wanted to cry, but didnt because he hates that haha... men!  I admitted that yes i am scared, there is going to be fear in everything but with support and prayers i will come out a better, thinner person that will be more active in life and show my son how life is supposed to be embraced instead of sitting back and watching the days flash by. I also think my dad is gonna help care for my son a little bit after surgery, he looked interested but probably needs to talk to his girlfriend. I am so grateful for his help.

Practice, Practice, Practice! The special words come back again. I gained 6 pounds in the last 5 weeks since my last nutrition visit. :( too much beer! I am back in the tunnel headed straight for surgery with no exits :) Its hard, but i gave up fast food for good! I had withdrawals for the last 4 days but today i am much better. I feel stronger, lighter, less bloated. My mind is sharp and i dont feel like a prisoner of my emotions or tummy.

My meals the last two days have looked like this.

Fiber one bar for breakfast
Almonds for snack
Ham and cheese sandwich for lunch
Pear and pumpkin seeds for snack
Protein shake for dinner
72oz of water throughout the day

This is about 1200 calories and fills me up, yesterday i was not hungry until i went home because it was too long between meals. I see my nutritionist for my last visit on 12/2/11, i cant wait to see what the scale says. I really want insurance approval so i can finally have the best weight loss tool ever.

My next appointments are:
11/21/11 Download SD card from CPAP machine
12/1/11 Pulmonary Surgery Clearance
12/2/11 Last Nutrition Visit
12/7/11 Nutrition Preop Class

I have heard that a recliner is the best way to sleep after surgery so i am going to try to get one off craigslist or something but still have a few weeks to buy one. I am also trying to pay off and get current on all bills. I will only be getting one and a half paychecks while im out and missing one and a half checks for the remainder of my leave. I am taking the full 6 weeks off so i can take the proper time to heal, get my eating and energy back on track and deal with some of the other issues that arise after surgery. I pray there are no complications but just in case i will be prepared.

I want to write a list of things i cant wait to change after surgery. i think i will do a seperate list in a couple weeks. or maybe i will do that today???

I reflected back on my cruise to the bahamas in July yesterday. I remembered a time when i was trying to wave jump, the waves were the biggest things i have ever seen before, but im a seasoned swimmer i should be able to do it right... wrong! i was swept under 4 times and while i was been slammed into the coarse sand and swallowing warm salt water i didnt get the life flash before my eyes thing that most people talk about. I just saw my son. It was and still is amazing to me that nothing else in my life matters except for him. i didnt flash back to anything good or bad in my life. i wonder if this is because i have no value in my own life except for the care i can provide to my son. crazy! This has nothing to do with WLS but just something thats been on my mind.

cheers!!! here is to 6-10 pounds that needs to be lost in the next 2.5 weeks. Its gonna fly by! i read a great post about staying positive. Dont think about the 2.5 weeks just think about today. I am thinking about today and how great this practice now will help me later. Next week after i feel comfortable with my new habits i want to practice drinking water 1 hr before meals and then again 1hr after meals, but not during the actual meal. I will probably work up 10 mins, 20 mins, 30 mins and on and on until i can do it. I dont want all the stress just after surgery combined with learning new habits. thats a disaster waiting to happen. I will update ya'll next week about how the practice is going. I am staying strong and have secured some incredible support from my best friend ashley and coworker Vicky. Also a great resource in an old high school buddy who had the surgery this past summer.

I am a SUCCESS!!! I will succeed in all things i do!!!

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