What I Ate Today --- Day 12

Dec 16, 2011

I had my preop appt with my surgeon yesterday. It went well. He felt my belly and showed me where to expect the incisions. He goes in under the belly button instead of the left side to pull my stomach out. i hope that diminishes the surgical pain and the gas pain. I got to ask all my questions that i found online. Infection rate is unknown (because another doc follows that, and if it was an issue im sure he would know about it) but no cases of MRSA!!! Bougie size is 38. no drain unless there is complications with the staple line. I have to stay 1 night in the ambulatory surgery center because i have sleep apnea. Both my parents are going to be there for me. I still have to figure out the logistics on the cars and who will be driving me home and blah blah. my cold is almost gone but if it persists then i may be cancelled by the picky anesethiologists. so lets all send up the positive thoughts, cross fingers and toes, pray or meditate so this darn cold will be gone before i go in to surgery.

I mentioned in a post a couple days ago that a friend was going to bring me to my preop and to surgery. turns out, last minute, he lent his car to his sister and could not come. needless to say i was very angry (swear words replaced) and he is no longer involved in my life at all! i called my dad balling my eyes out and he rushed down to the surgical center and sat with me throughout the whole process. which ended up taking 2.5 hours! the doctor explained everything in detail for my dad and was extremely thorough. it was a fantastic experience.

As for my eating yesterday. i stayed on track. i did wonderful, despite the emotional rollercoaster. this morning i was exhausted, packed my lunch but forgot it at the door! who does that??? i guess i do on fridays lol. im not supposed to have coffee due to the acidic nature but i am sipping on an americano right now with non fat milk and equal. i probably wont finish the whole thing. i ate 2 string cheese for breakfast. and bought a sandwich. when its lunch time i will NOT be eating the sourdough bread! The surgeon of course stressed the need to stay on the low carb diet. i told him its a little difficult sometimes but in the end i am very scared of complications so i am doing everything possible to limit those. No complications, No complications, No complications. Thats my mantra and he liked that.

we discussed goal weight and 6 week post op goal. there is no specific goal that he has in mind. healthy, happy, stable are the three things he wants to see. My personal goal is 140lbs. he asked me when i was ever that weight. my dad instantly stopped twiddling his thumbs and started to think. could i have been born 140lbs because i remember when i was 10 i was almost 200 and stayed there throughout my schooling. he is not sure where i will end up but my moto is going to be 'im going all the way' that may change a little bit as i go through this process but to me it means that i am having surgery, a drastic measure, to lose weight, to be healthy. the most incredible tool ever. i will not waste it! i will get to a normal bmi, normal weight, i will wear normal clothes and fit in normal spaces. i will no longer be a victim to my damn genes, fat cells, and food. i am going all the way! no holding back. i need the rocky song on my phone lol

the surgeons scale is rigged i think because i was 284 in june around the time when i bought my house, think lots of beer, wine, pizza and fast food, yesterday i was 279. my scale at home however was 282, i have been the same for 3 days now. im ok with that, not freaking out. i think it has a little something to do with the healthy tacos ive been eating, maybe a little too much salt and fat from the sour cream.

by time my next blog shows up i will have just over 1 week left. 1 WEEK! 9 DAYS! HOLY COW! Its here, its finally here. now im officially scared, nervous, anxious, excited. how can one feel all those emotions at the same time??? no wonder im a little crazy right now. get ready to ride the roller coaster. hahahahaha

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