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I had my decision visit on 2/20/09.  After much research, prayer, soul searching, pondering, and contemplating, I have decided to have the RNY.  I am excited.  I have done all my preliminary requirements.  Once my insurance company gives the approval, the surgeon will give me a date.  By the way, I decided to take the advice from my nut and psych and I started implementing some changes that support a healthier lifestyle...the one that I will be living after surgery.  I have lost 20 lbs. since 1/15/09.  I think I am ready.   

I am struggling with the decision to have gastric bypass surgery.  I am 43 and at 5'2" I weigh 255 lbs.  I have high blood pressure, high colesterol, high triglycerides, and high blood sugar.  There is a history of heart disease and diabetes in my family.  I don't enjoy the quality of life that I could enjoy if I weighed 120 lbs less.  I always thought I could diet and excercise my way back to a healthy weight.  However, I never have.  I started consdiering surgery in October when my blood sugar started going out of control.  I'm not diabetic yet, but I feel like it's not far off.  My family doctor thinks surgery is a good idea.  I have been to see the surgeon, psych, and nutritionist.  I have to have an endoscopy and one more psych visit.  I feel like I will be approved.  I want this badly.  I want to be healthier and I want to participate more in life.  But, my fears are a big obstacle.  I am so scared.  I'm scared that I will end up in a worse position than I am in now.  I am scared there will be complications from surgery.  I am scared that I will be unhealthy because of the lack of absortion.  I am scared I will end up feeling worse than I do now.  How do I reconcile the fears and take the plunge?