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Well I am still working on all my deadlines but had a minute to pop in and jot down a few notes.  I can't wait for the next few weeks to be over so I can get back to my life besides work!  

The scale is still stuck and getting really annoying. All I do is bounce between 27 and 29 pounds, it is making me crazy!  My portions are way too big, I can eat and eat and eat.  Also I am PMS'ing so it seems at this time I am hungry 24/7 and can eat gobs and gobs of food.  I have not had any time to exercise either with all the work I have been doing. Iam sooooo frustrated!!!  I feel like a big fat blob the last few days.  I go for a fill on the 23rd so hopefully he can be aggressive and get me some restriction cause this sucks.

I feel like I am at the same place I always get when I diet, I lose 25 pounds, come to a stand still for several weeks and then crash and burn.  I don't know, I am trying to stay as positive as I can but I have so much going on at work and with finances at home that I am at my stress limit and feel as though I am going to snap.  I know, get over it and get your butt in gear right? right!

On some better news, my doctor dropped my dose of blood pressure meds to the lowest dose fr my brand!  That was exciting and I have been feeling fine. A bit of headaches for a few days but they are gone.  I am hoping it helps with my migranes since those have become horribly worse.  

Another good bit of news is my son has started soccer, we just got back from the parent/coaches meeting and we are very excited for him. He is 3 years old so this should be a lot of fun and chaos, right up my alley!  He is on a team with his best friend (our neighbor who is 8 months older) they are two peas in a pod.  There are like 5 girls on his team so I am sure he will be happy about that, he LOVES to flirt with the ladies. I'll post some pics soon.

This weekend on Saturday we are going to Disney since they are having the big Star Wars month and my son is OBSESSED with Star Wars and I am not kidding by an means. He has tons of toys and we watch at least one of the movies every day. Makes me nuts!  We have not told him so it should be a fun surprise.  Then Sunday I am having a fathers day cookout at my house so all my family will be here to swim and grill so I am looking forward to sticking my butt in a raft for a while. Although I do al the cooking and grilling in the family so I won't get much rest.

Well sorry for the long post hope everyone is doing wonderful, thanks for always listening to me whine

Ugh, I finally got my catalog done, I worked over 160 hours in the last two weeks! Just last saturday and sunday I worked 32 hours alone. I am sooooo tired and burnt out. I am not out of the woods yet, I still have a one page flyer, a 4 page flyer, a 3 page flyer, a 6 page brochure and several larger banner size tradeshow graphics to design, proof, get printed and completed by the
13th!  I have had 4 migranes in the past 3 days, it has not been fun at all.

The scale is stuck at 28 pounds, I am sure it has to do with all the sitting I have been doing. I have not been able to exercise at all which bummed me out so I think tonight I will get some time to do that but as soon as I get home I have a birthday party to go to so it will be a late workout.  Next week my son starts soccer so that will just add to the chaos that is my life.

It was funny yesterday I had an appointment with my doc to talk about getting off my blood pressure meds but since I have been so stressed, and I mean even to the point where I was so dizzy from being tired and stressed that I almost fainted and had to hold on to my desk to keep from falling, I decided to cancel the appointment and wait until next week when I am a little calmer.

One good thing the big bosses know how hard I worked, they really got involved which was nice and they REALLY liked my work so they said they will "take care of me" for all the extra hard work.  Now we will just see how well they "take care of me".

Well just thought I would stop in and let everyone know I was still alive just can't seem to get time to log on. everything with the lapband is going well, I have another fill on the 23rd so I am looking forward to that as I can eat quite a bit still.

Hope everyone is doing well!

Ugh, I am going crazy at work trying to make all my deadlines. We have 2 tradeshows back to back and I have so much to do I am freaking out.  I have 2 days to get a completely redesigned catalog to our printer and I am nowhere near done!!

Anyway I have not been able to get on much in the last few days.  Things are going great in the world of Lapband. I am down 28 pounds, I am officially fitting into all my size 14's and even some 12's!!!

I had my first PB/Slime situation, it was horrible! I don't want to do that ever again.  I took a bite of chicken and without even thinking barely chewed and swallowed.  By the time I reaized what I had done it was too late.  It felt like someone stuck a dagger in my chest.  I started to feel like I wanted to throw up and started salivating like mad. I started spitting it out and walking around trying to get it to move. I took a drink which was a big mistake.  I also learned not to bend over when it happens, that hurt like hell!
Eventually after about 3 minutes (which seemed like 30) I threw up. Not the normal throwing up but more like a short Blurp and a the chicken and some yucky stuff came up, with quite a bit of force I might add.

I hurt a bit afterwards but within a few minutes I was fine and sipping some water.

LESSON LEARNED! I hope I never do that again!!!!

Gotta get back to work...I better get a bonus this year.....

Wow, eating solid foods after the fill is very different.  It is so strange to me to get full on so little food.  I have a very hard time accepting it for some reason. Last night for dinner I had Chicken Nam Sod (a Thai dish that is basically lettuce, tomato, cucumber topped with crumbled ground chicken and peanuts with fish sauce, lime juice, strips of fresh ginger and some crushed pepper-it is one of my favorites) anyway I had that and an eggroll for me.  I could only eat most of the chicken, ginger and peanuts and maybe 2 bites of lettuce and less than half of an eggroll and I was full. Before surgery I would have eaten the entire Nam Sod salad, a whole eggroll and probably half of an order of Pad Thai noodles.

Same thing happend at lunch yesterday. I went to Quiznos and ordered a catalina chicken sammie and a bowl of chili. It looked so small to me, those sammies are smaller than a taco.  I ate the guts of the sammie and a few bites of the bread and about half of the chili and I was stuffed. It lasted all day too, I was full all day until about 7:00.  It just seems so strange!....wonderful but strange.

I am having a little more trouble getting my water in so I have to step that up a bit and it is definately tighter in the morning than the evening.  Drinking feels really wierd, you feel like you swallow a lot of air now

Also the good news is according to my scale I am down 2 more pounds putting me at 27 pounds lost!! Yipeeeeeee!

I will have to celebrate 30 pounds with something for myself. I think I might do a drastic hair change.

Also I only have 55 more minutes left to make my 1000 minutes of exercise goal for the month of May. I am sure I will go well over that! I am so proud of myself!

Well I don't feel much restriction today. In the morning it seems to be tight as it did take me about 15 mintues to get my pills down. But by the afternoon I want to eat everything in sight. I was bad today and did full liquids for lunch instead of waiting one more day. I definately don't think this is going to do much but at least it is a start. 

Don't get me wrong I do feel a bit different. When I drink if I go to fast or take too big of gulps it gurgles a lot and I burp and air comes up a lot. I know liquids sort of go right through you so I wonder if I will feel restriction when I eat soft and solids.  Either way I go back on the 23rd of next month for my next fill so I am not going to sweat it too much.

I have heard some people say it can take 2 weeks for the fill to "take" and you to feel the restriction and a few people have told me my doc did a rather aggresive fill for my first one. 

Also today I had a NSV moment. I have this beautiful midnight bluish purple blouse I just love. I bought it a long time ago and have only worn it once. When I started all this I could barely get it on it was so tight on the arms and there was no way the buttons and button holes were in sight of each other.  Today I tried it on and I was able to button it, it is still way too tight to wear but the fact is just a few more pounds and I can wear it again!!!  I can't wait, for some reason I like it so much, it is very sleek and classy. Once I fit in it I will take a pic.

Hope everyone is doing wonderful!

This morning I went in for my first fill.  We went over what all has been going on and he was extremely pleased with my progress.  I am down 25 pounds officially!!!  I had to lay down and he swabbed me with some numbing/antibacterial stuff then came the ouchie! he pushed around for a bit to find the right spot then stuck me and I won't lie it sort of hurt.  then he had to move the needle around a bit to find the center.  He didn't use a needle though he used a sort of needle on the end of a tube. Sort of like an IV. He said it just makes it much easier and comfortable for me to sit up and drink water without a needle hanging out of me.

He took out anything that was in the band which was very little, he said they prime the band during surgery but it is not enough for restriction, it usually just fills the tube from the port.

He then put in 3.4cc's in and had me drink water as fast as I could until I felt like it was stuck in my throat. He said I would know the feeling when it happend and boy did I!!! I barely got half of the 8oz bottle of water down and I thought I was going to hurl. I was salavating like I was going to puke.  He had me sit for a bit to see how well it went down and it didn't feel like it was getting much better. He took out just a bit and it felt much better. We decided we didn't want to make it too tight so we left that ittle bit out and I have 3.2cc's in a 10cc band.  

I am on clear liquids for 2 days, full liquids for 2 days then regular foods slowly.  I am so excited, I do feel restriction but who knows what will happen when the swelling goes down.  I have had water, some crystal light tea and about 4oz of broth all day. 

I am sure by tomorrow I will be starving!!  Oh well I am excited to really get the show on the road and get some restriction.  I have another fill scheduled for June 23rd.

Well things are going peachy, I have been exercising and loving it for the first time in my life. I get upset if I don't get in at least 30 to 60 minutes.  The scale seemed to move again a bit and according to my scale I am down 25 pounds now. If that is the case then I have finaly made it out of the 180's!!!! I get my first fill on Monday so I am sure I will weigh in and we can see what that scale says, it always seems to be about 1 pound off but I will take any loss I can get!  Plus I do it home without any clothes on so when I go to the doc I make sure I wear light clothes and flip-flops

I am feeling good today, mood is up, carnitas are cooking away in the slow cooker all day, work is going good, I am down a few pounds and it is FRIDAY!!!!

Tomorrow we are going to Epcot with the Mother inlaw in toe (ugh) but at least I can get lots of exercise. Sunday will be cleaning, lawn work and scrubbing floors. Whoopieeee

Ok so I spoke too soon yesterday. We had our employee appreciation BBQ at work yesterday where upper management cooked and served us. I ate WAY too much!!!! I was in SOOOOO much pain. I had a lot of work to do so I ate really fast so I didn't feel full until it was way too late.  It was awful!!! 
I will never do that again, I just hope I didn't do any damage to my pouch or band. I feel ok today and I am taking it easy on food but man, my old self just slipped right in there and sabotaged me.

It was just a crappy day all around for me, I hurt my knee so I couldn't exercise last night and I have been having a lot of trouble with my left hand hurting for quite some time. It aches and sometimes I can barely use it. I figured it was carpal tunnel since I was diagnosed with it when I was pregnant with my son. Well I think I found a cyst on my wrist that is causing it. I was soooo freaked out, I am driving along on the interstate and I see the lump on my wrist for the first time so I touch it and it MOVED! I felt it slide around in there and it totally grossed me out, I almost crashed the car I was so yucked out. The feeling of it moving in there hurt but totally skeeved me out.

Anyway, I hope today is a better day. Monday I get my fill so that gives me something to look forward to. This weekend we are going to Epcot again but unfortunately my mother in-law is coming with us. She makes me crazy and her and my DH fight the whole time we go anywhere together so I am not looking forward to that.

Ok so my normal routine on a worknight is get home about 6pm, get dinner started and hangout in the family room with my son watching TV and playing then maybe a workout after dinner and off to bed.

Yesterday I got off work got home about 6, picked up my DH and son and we went out to eat, got home and sat down my purse and took my son straight to the back yard where we played on his playground set, I am creating a lid for his sandbox so I brought out my power saw and cut the wood while he played and my DH was weeding the landscaping. Then I took him out front and helped him ride his bike, scooter and his powered truck around the neighborhood. I went in, we put Liam to bed, my hubby went to bed and I went and spent an hour on my eliptical machine!! 

I would have NEVER been able to do all that before. I was not even tired after all that!  I know I have only lost 23 pounds but WOW what a difference it has made. Not to mention I am eating better so my body just feels more on track.  It just made me feel so good to actually be an active mommy and just have some fun.

Just thought I would share.

Well, I had a wonderful Mommy day, my DH had to work so it was just me and the twerpy. We had a picnic in his treehouse and played together all day. It was a wonderful time.

My weightloss has stalled out again but next Monday I go for my first fill so hopefully things will start to change.  I am trying to prepare myself for the fill not being any restriction though. I have heard a lot that the first fill on a 10cc band may not give much or any restriction. I guess it is a start though.

Exercising has been going great and my energy levels have been much higher. Although I am PMSing right now so I am hungry and tired. Oh well, such is being a woman right?

Hope everyone had a great Mommy Day and a wonderful weekend.