TWO STINKING POUNDS

Oct 27, 2011

Two stinking pounds is all I lost this month. 

I am pissed. 

I am pissed at myself, I am pissed at my tiny tummy, I am pissed at chocolate. 

I can now eat more all of a sudden, and I'm hungry to boot.  I've been trying to eat every couple of hours, and to keep protein around.  but I found low fat crackers -- 30 for 120 calories.  And I loved them. And I think it turned on the carb monster that I never knew lingered inside me. 

So this week I put the crackers in little zip lock bags, so I don't eat too many.  Half a serving of crackers.  Once a day. 

I can't figure out what it is.  Yes, I'm eating a bit more at meals. I can eat a whole chicken thigh now.  A whole egg. But I can't believe that my body refuses to lose any more weight on what I am eating.....

And I'm doing my curves -- managed to get in there 4 days this week, and maybe will get there tomorrow too -- 5 days.  And I'm taking a walk at lunch or during the day at work -- even if it's just once around the parking lot and to the trash bins.  Sigh. 

I know....117 pounds is nothing to sneeze at.  I just wanted to get down to 170 by January -- my surgeversary......but it's not looking good.  I keep telling myself that EVEN IF I only lose 2 pounds a month ......that will put me at 181 in November, and 179 in December, and 177 in January......so maybe by MAY.....

I"m not giving up......I'm going to get there.  166 makes me "OVERWEIGHT".  That is my goal.  to get there.  skinny was never my goal.  My surgeon told me his goal for me at 12 to 18 months was 170.  maybe by 18 months....

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