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Nov 29, 2011

I'm in the 170's !!!!  OMG.  I can't believe it. I have NO idea when the last time I weighed somewhere around this number.  Most probably somewhere about 1983.  That would mean.....ummmm 28 years ago... Dear Lord... I"m wearning size 14 and 16 petite clothing. I'm exercising 3 to 4 times a week, I"m eating like a normal human being, and I'm happy. 

Yes, I am happy.  Happy with myself, happy with how I look, how people see me, and how I project myself.  It's been a difficult transformation for me to wrap my head around.  I have had to re-learn who I am, where I am in space, where my body boundries are.  I have had to learn that I' m not the "fat white social worker lady" anymore.  I have twice been referred to as the "little white social worker lady" and was floored by the title ! I am by no means little -- but considering I'm only just over 5'2" and I'm no longer hugely obese.....heck, I'll take it !!!

These last two months have been hard in weight loss terms....losing a pound or two now takes me a month...but that's ok.  I would be happy to lose the last nine and a half pounds over the next 5 or 6 months.  Wouldn't faze me a bit. At least my clothes will continue to fit !!!

I think my own goal will ultimaately be around 165.  But we shall see.  I don't want to go too far into the future here.... because you never know what each weight will feel like next ! 

Work is busy, fast and furious, but no complaints there.  Home is as it ever was.  concerned about Jess, and my dad....but I just do what I need to do and take care of everybody....

I LOVED LOVED LOVED my Black Friday shopping spree !!! A beautiful dress and 2 outfits with a nice black skirt ! 4 pr of shoes (no more wide width for me !!!) And trouser socks in normal ladies sizes that don't cut off my circulation below the knee ! And I bought tights !!!!  and black pumps !!!!

I can't wait to put them all on !!!

Hope this last week of weight loss does not come to a screeching halt this soon....I hate hate hate this lose a pound, lose a half a pound then gain a pound back.  Spend the next two weeks fighting to re lose the pound I gained....then maintain for a week and then lose another pound.....gosh I'd rather lose an ounce every other day or two....then forever feel like I'm going up and down the staircase....

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