CJ P.

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Well history was made last night and I do look forward to the changes for our country. Thats all you'll here from me about it.

I decided Monday I was going to change how I've been eating and I lost 2 pounds! I've been on a stall for over 6 weeks so I am very happy about this loss. Today, Wednesday, I decided to change my lack of excercising habits too. I will excercise at least 3 days a week. Thats what my nutritionist said I should start at then gradually add a day. I asked for a bicycle for the holidays- hope it happens!!! I really just want the bike nothing else.

I guess we'll see by next week if my new goals have worked!!!

I seem to moan and complain about the stalls but today I looked at what I've been eating NO WONDER!!! Now my dietician only wants me to count carbs and protein not calories because if you follow the carb/protein rule the calories will fall into place..... ok so I follow the rule and consume 1500 calories!!! No wonder I'm losing so slowly. I've called and left a message. Hope to hear something soon. Just frustrated with it and the fact I'm being lazy and not following my excercise routine. I believe its all about motivation and lately I've been puting in 12-14 hour days at work with maybe a 15 minute break. By the time I get home I am beat and don't talk to me about going to the gym I pay for!!!! I try to get up earlier but I'm so tired and groggy from working I hit the snooze for an hour then jump up and rush out the door! UGGHHH!!!!!.....Welcome to my world.......

Its been two weeks since I posted. I've been so busy. Haven't lost a pound in several weeks. I hate all the stalls but I never could've lost almost 70 pounds in 4 months without my RNY. I love it!

I have had a hellofa week! I have to work Sunday so my weekend is short but I'll take what I can get! I've battled a nasty toothache and had to go to the evil dentist so he could take care of it and then he decided I need a root canal to save one tooth and I have several cavaties all of this with insurance will be close to 800.00!!! Oh well I better have a beautiful pain free smile for it! Its budget season and I hate budgets. I should go back to school and find a new profession. I've tried going to other places but with my background they say I'll get bored. Never should have went into management! Time to take meds and get some sleep....

I have gotten up very late. It looks like I'll be going into work late also. I hate starting my day out like this! I bet you're wondering why I'm on the computer when I'm running late well I'm trying to wake up, drink my coffee etc.... I already feel yucky and haven't even gotten to work yet. I didn't do too well yesterday on protein. I didn't track it before I consmed it and ended the day only with 23grams and I wonder why I'm losing my hair?!!! Well I'm getting back on track. I've also noticed the amount of carbs I consume.... not good. Most days I'm around 80 and I know I should be around that for brain health but my nut wants me no more than 60... this shit can be so confusing. I have no energy. Not sure about why but I definately have none and no motivation AT ALL!!! I write on here so I can see where things are amiss and fix it but the lack of motivation really sucks- can't figure it out. I'm sure my PCP will tell me on friday when I see her.

I am in so much pain I can't sleep. Its after 2 am and I need to get up at 6am. My teeth have become so sensitive and hurt so bad. Can't go to the dentist until after Octber 1st- insurance issue. I don't know what to do? I don't believe this has to do with my weight loss but we'll see I guess. I had all my cavaties pulled at the beginning of this year so that's out of the question. Someone said maybe my gums are receding and a nerve is exposed? I feel stupid. I have no idea but how can I focus at work in this pain. We'll see tommorrow or today does not look promising!

Its been a crazy week!!! I am physically and mentally exhausted. The storm on Sunday knocked out power and our hotel was the only one in the area with power, so our employees were run to death! The sad part is how people can be so cruel and unappreciative whne they are stressed out. We had a woman refuse to leave the hotel because she had no power- we were sold out- she explained it like we had no idea and she was alone-GET REAL PEOPLE!!! We all were without and still came in to work just to be abused my inconsiderate people!!! I'm posting this on the rant board!

This is becoming unbearable by the day. This morning I got up and went in to do my hair and when I lifted mt bangs you can see where the hair has fallen out. I am really depressed. I knew this was a possibility of the surgery and I was told its normal for some hairloss around 3 months post op but I am still in shock. My bathroom floor is covered in long dark hair, my brush is full, I sit all day picking it off my clothes and brushing it out of my face. Today I get my blood work done and hopefully the doctor can check and make sure everything is ok. I am also buying Biotin to take. I heard it works and I know it can't hurt. At this pace I'll be bald or have bald spots by the end of the month! 

I don't think I'm sleeping too well. I can't use that CPAP machine for my apnea and I'm sure that's the cause. I'm not losing as much weight as I would like to but I'll find out tomorrow where I should be when I see Dr. Curry. Exercise is my biggest issue. I do well for awhile and then all of the sudden- No motivation or something happens at home or work that distracts me.

I am losing alot of hair. I've almost had alot and even joked about being able to lose some-it was just a joke though! I used to clean out my hair brush once or twice a week now its everyday and I am constantly brushing off my clothes, sink and my desk at work! I'm worried.

I'm also experiencing bleeding gums every time I brush and my teeth ache and are very sensitive. I will tell the doctor tomorrow. They will be doing blood work for my 3 month check up so we'll see if there is a deficiency some where.

Lets see... been a week since I posted. We went camping over the Labor Day weekend. Its was great, like a mini vacation. My father in law and my daughters best friend came along and this was there first time camping. They had a great time. I got lots of great excercise...hiking, setting up camp and breaking camp. I can't wait until Sept 20th- our next camping trip- we like to camp in the fall.

I am going to my PCP today. I found a lump on the side of my neck near my jawline right below my ear- hope that makes sense. Thye wanted to see me immediately when I called so I'm leaving work early so I can see what it is- I do worry about it because my father had cysts alot on his neck- one almost killed him.

I also have a new surgeon to see for after care. Dr Curry in Evendale. I go next week for my first visit and three month blood work- it doesn't feel like three months! 50 pounds down- I never could have done this before my RNY! I noticed alot of people have lost alot more than me in a shorter time- it figures!

Still need to excercise more. I haven't been very motivated lately when I get in from work and can't seem to get my arse out of bed early enough. Maybe once I get checked out I'll feel better.

....Back from the doctor.....swollen lymphnodes(can't spell) but she says its probably nothing to worry about and we should watch it to make sure it doesn't grow. I have to check it every week and see her in a month. ITS ALL GOOD!!!