Life sucks sometimes

Jan 30, 2010

So sometimes life really sucks.  It sucks whether you're fat or almost skinny.  I'm starting the proceedings for divorce.  The reasons are many and varied and have been a long time coming.  I'm terrified.  I'm scared I'll be alone forever (although I don't know that I'd mind that).  I'm scared of struggling financially, of finding an appropriate place to live, of my kids never forgiving me, and if it's the right thing to do.  I'm angry too.  Being pissed and scared at the same time sucks.  Being pissed and scared and trying to manage your weight sucks.  I've been playing with the same 4 lbs. for about 2 months now and I'm starting to think maybe I'm done losing.  Maybe my body is happy where it is.  Or maybe I just screwed this up too.  Ok I just needed to vent for a minute.

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