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Hi all! It's been a while
Sep 11, 2008
Even tho I haven't been to the gym and the scale really isn't moving, I know I"m losing inches. the few pants I have left are sagging in the butt/croch area; which is better than them getting tight right.
My husband told me the other day that I can stop losing now...he likes me "just like this". I'm like man I have AT LEAST 25lbs to go. He coiuldn't believe that..but I'm still OBESE according to BMI. I like where I am, but desire more to be gone...so I can't let what other people think (even my husband) sway me.
A guy I've worked with for many years told me (loudly) "My, you are looking quite sexy lately". Now this could have been a sexual harrassment claim right....but no, this guy is cool...just needs to make sure he watches himself. I know he didn't mean it in a bad way...but it did make me to a double take like "Man, you do value your job right".
The 5K race is next weekend. I'm so bummed because I haven't been working out so not sure how I"ll do. I will push to get the 2lbs off between now and then because I NEED some new workout clothes and would like some new gym pants to do the race in; but I told myself not until I hit 170...so gotta stick to that.
My birthday is next week, so I'll post some new pictures.
Happy Saturday
Aug 23, 2008
The last 2 weeks have been extremely busy at work and I haven't had time for anything. I went to the gym today after being gone for 2+ weeks. It dang near killed me. After being gone a little over 2 weeks, I was only able to get in 30 mins on the treadmill and then did 20 mins weights. I have to find a way to fit gym
into my newly overwhelmed scheduled I am still tittering between 172 & 174. It's frustrating, but I'm not worried about it...been here with the stalls before right. I was just hoping I could meet my 165 goal by Labor Day for the challenge; but it doesn't look like that'll happen. Oh well.....
Have a good weekend and keep me covered in prayer...I need it
SHIRT TUCKED IN!!
Aug 19, 2008
Put on a some low riser pants today that my sis bought me before surgery. Wore them with a nylon/spandex mixed top. Two things I never would have worn before surgery. As I finished getting dressed, the best option was to TUCK my top in. No big bulge from the belly, no ripples of stomach fat or muffin top showig through the top...NOTHING. it just fit and worked out. I've been looking in the mirror all day LOL. I have not tucked my top into ANYTHING in a long time....MANY, MANY YEARS.
THEN, I met with a vendor who hasn't physically seen me in several years. Today they were in town, so I met with them. They were so full of compliments and couldn't believe it was me. When I came to the door to let them in, they stared for a couple seconds because they didnt' know it was me coming to get them. They really made my day with the compliments.....
What a WOW day.
WOW moment!
Aug 17, 2008
My girl Nikki's mom hasn't seen me since a few weeks or so out of surgery. I was running past her to get something and I saw her do a double take. I grabbed what I needed to and came back to her and she was like "I didn't know that was you"...she had a serious shocked look on her face. It was funny. She said she looked at me and didn't think it was me.
WOW! is all I can say. To God be the Glory!
Today! my 6 month surgeversary
Jul 31, 2008
Where has time gone? 6 months ago today I was 59.6 lbs heavier and 37.75 inches wider. Today I'm 174.4
It's been a ride of ups and downs, new discoveries, frustrations and WOW moments, tears and laughter, trying to see the me that everyone else does (physically from the outside) and so on. Would I do it again? HELL YES...My only regret....no doing it sooner.
I still have a long way to go. AS of today I am 24.4 lbs from goal...may seem like a little to some...but for me it seems like I'm an ant trying to climb a huge mountain...it's not easy - but I'm determined to make it. It's funny, in this WL journey you have stalls and then drops...3 weeks ago I was 9.4lbs heavier than I am today. Seemed like the scale would never move, then over the last few days....BOOM....I must say I have been eating ALOT better and exercising my butt off, drinking my water and consistantly taking my vits/mins...as well as ensuring that I am getting in all my protein.
Here's to another 6 months 
...and my hopes is to be at goal long before that time...which will be my 1 year surgiversary.
WOW moment - walking into the room last night where my husband, daughter and 11 y/o son were sitting. I, of course, had on a new outfit that I found at Marshalls and wanted their opinion....My husband was like DAMMMNNNN, you look good. My son says....mom, SINCE YOU GOT SKINNY (who me??? I'm SKINNY in HIS eyes now OMGosh... 
),you are a DIVA. I'm like what does that mean...he said "you always have on nice clothes now". I said is that what DIVA means....he said yeah. SHUCKS, I thought I had nice clothes before...but kids will not lie...so I guess in his eyes, they weren't nice....probably just BIG...
Tuesday! Hey y'all
Jul 29, 2008
). Slept thru the alarm this A.M. so went to the gym on lunch. Did 55 mins of run/walk at 4/1. I'm definately getting stronger with my running...I feel energized towards the end.Been eating pretty good for a while...but must say the evenings are the worst for me. Everything goes good until after dinner..then my sweet tooth kicks in. Last night I grabbed a handful of Kashi cocoa granola, a few craisons and some crystalized ginger thru it in a baggie and ate it. (Nikki told me this is really candy,...oh well, I thought it was healthy..the ginger that is..cause it's crystalized i.e. sugar coated)...I'm so frustrated with myself because even tho I'm not eating a freaking kit kat bar or an ice cream drum stick
..lol..it's still not what is on my plan to eat for the day and I wish I could just walk away and that be that...but I find myself drawn back into the kitchen until I put something in my mouth. 
LOL)......
Starting it off right
Jul 26, 2008
So was at the gym at 7:45 this A.M...did 55 mins run/walk. Did mostly 3 mins/2 mins...but I always catch a second wind at around 30 mins...so I ran 8 mins, walked 2, ran 5 mins, walked 2..and then 3/2 the rest. I felt really good. Did abs along with the class. Gosh I hate doing ab work..but God knows I need to focus some attention to it. Then did my weights today...Decided that I must do weights whether I"n losing or not (which I'm still NOT ...Oh Well).
Today is my daughters 18th bday...she's all smiles - which is a big change from her usual grumpy teenage grown self....Taking her out to get a new phone (she doesn't know it yet), some hair LOL..yes, she needs some new HEER...and then making shrimp tonight and buying a little ice cream cake..of which I will have NONE after the dumping episode last week.
Anyway, trying to up my calories while wathing the carbs....Well, I have my whole meal planned out for the day AND STILL under 1000 calories..but I"m also under 40g carbs which is great...and at 118g protein..which I have NEVER done since surgery (the shrimp is high in prot and zero carbs.
Have a wonderful weekend.
Blue today
Jul 24, 2008
I'm usually the one encourageing people and teling them not to look at the scale and not to be discouraged by what the scale says, etc....but today I"m just not feeling very encouraged...Maybe cause I didn't go to the gym..who know.
But I"ve been in a 178-179 rut for weeks now. I"ve been exercising sooo much. EAting right MOST of the time, definately getting in my water (thanks Nikki for the bottle), my protein is where it should be and taking my vits/mins....but still can't drop below 178-179...it fluctuates between these two numbers.
I honestly don't know what else I can do and have been asking myself all morning "AM I GONNA BE THIS SIZE FOREVER". I love the way I feel health wise and gets lots of compliments...but I feel like I"m failing because I can't meet my weight goals. I have a mini goal of 170 by July 31st and the Labor Day mini challenge of 165 by Labor Day...but at the rate I"m going...I may still be 179 on Labor Day.
I know what you're gonna say.....but I guess maybe I"m in a whiney mode today..I don't know..but I'm feeling mighty BLUE right now about this and can't shake it.
Oh yeah, I even stopped the weight routine at the gym this week thinking if I only do cardio, I'll be able to drop something.
This evening
Jul 23, 2008
Was in the mood for oatmeal at dinner...so made some and then came up with the fancy idea to add protein powder to get more protein...WHAT A MISTAKE....it was so gross...I tossed it out. Now I"m subjected to eating just watermeleon....not in the mood to make more oatmeal cause it's not the instant, it's the quaker oats in that red/white/blue canister...and i've already washed the pot I made it in...I know, I know....lazy..but once the kitchen is clean...why mess it up right...so watermeleon it is...
Oh, BTW, the step teacher who I haven't seen in a while cause I"ve been going in the morning did a double take and told me I looked GREAT. That was a nice compliment.....
