heidinsd
Surgery day 4/12/2010
Apr 11, 2010
Its the day before surgery 4/11/2010
Apr 11, 2010
Ok so my surgery is tomorrow ack! I have been ok this week, now I'm starting to freak out again lol. So I'm doing my liquid diet today, have to say not as bad as I thought it was going to be, but we will see later tonight lol. I had to take that dreaded MOM omg I almost threw up but held my own.
I'm still so nervous but i know i have made the right choice. I really can't wait to be a better mom to my daughter. She deserves to have a active, healthy mom.
I'm just trying to stay busy today and keep my mind off of the surgery. Wish me luck !! I'll be on the losing team in no time!!
I had my pre-op appt today 4/9/10
Apr 09, 2010
I don't know if I have said this before but my mom passed away 2 years ago and I know she is my angel in all of this, and she wouldn't let it get this far if something was going to happen. My mom had a lot of medical problems and before the time she past away she was in the hospital with a bowel obstruction and it ruptured and she went septic and Dr Tanaka was one of the surgeons that saved my mom that time, Dr Tanaka is my surgeon and I feel that he once saved my moms life he is now saving my life. This tool is a wonderful gift from god. I know its not going to be easy but its going to be a extraordinary ride!!!
Hang on tight going on a life long journey!!!!
happy easter!! 4/4/2010
Apr 04, 2010
Also I had a couple of people ask me if I'm going to change after the surgery??? I'm like how would I change, maybe be more happy, more confident, more noticeable not hiding behind my fat because I'm so unhappy?? If that's how I'm going to change then yeah I guess so !!! I think ill still have my personality cant change that or at least don't want too.
I guess that's all for now, let the count down begin woo hoo.
having a lot of emotions right now 3/30/2010
Mar 30, 2010
I have a date woo hoo (3/27/2010)
Mar 27, 2010
So its offical I have my surgery date, its April 12th. Cant believe its happening. I have been waiting a long time, I'll give a little history: so about 5 or 6 years ago I was going to do the surgery at UCSD hospital. I had a surgery date set and everything. A month before my surgery the office called and said they are closing the clinic for health reasons SCARY. I took that as a sign from god that it wasnt the right time or place. So maybe a year later I tried at the place im having surgery now, I was denied from my insurance company because they said i didnt have enough supervised diets with my pc. So I basicallly gave up and tried to lose weight on my own, Do i do it no. So I just figured I was going to live obese for the rest of my life. Several years later I got a better job with great benefits (kaiser). I talked to my pc and they referred me to positive choice, I had to do a 24 week class about the surgery and it helped a lot. So here I am with my surgery approved and date in hand. Wow god is good. I feel this time its meant to be and its basically god's approval that this is the right time. Im so excited and scared and every emotion you can think about. I'll keep you posted!!!!!
still waiting.... 3/23/2010
Mar 23, 2010
not sure what to write-3/18/2010
Mar 18, 2010
I have kaiser insurance (yes finally a insurance that cares about my heath). With kaiser they have you do a 24 week class to prepare you for the surgery, which helped out a lot. So I'm done with that, I have done all my lab work, yes somethings came back but i have been correcting them. Nothing major just a bacterial infection and low vitamin d.
So all my paperwork was submitted and i have been approved for the surgery.
I have seen the surgeon, and the psychiatrist, and the internist. The internist said he heard a heart murmur, I'm like great anything else they are going to find out. but i guess better now then during surgery. So i had a echo cardiogram done and everything is fine.
So here i wait, and wait, and wait, waiting for my surgery date. I know it takes times to make all the arrangements but dang i need to know so i can start getting things in order. OK so i guess i did have stuff to write lol ill keep a post of what is going on soon.