Go Hug Your Loved Ones!

Dec 15, 2010

The world is coming to an end.

Talked to my mom tonight. Little back story, my mom and I have had a complicated history. You'll get the worst of it here because I'm tired and want to be brief....
from a young age my mother told me I was fat (I wasn't) it wasn't until I was 17 when my pancreas said enough, helped me gain 100 pounds and welcomed diabetes that she stopped saying it. Not once since I got fat has she tried to make me feel bad about it.

My mom has struggled with her weight since she had kids, she's now larger than I was before my surgery. She often projects her insecurities on me. Older and further away as I am, I can see this now. I couldn't when I was younger. Coupled with untreated bi-polar disorder and some childhood trauma that she ignored, we haven't been able to be close. We fake it well enough and get along for the most part, but she's not the one I go to when something isn't right in my life, she's not the person I call for advice. She's 2 time zones away and that works well for me.
Dad, on the other hand, is one of my standards for what men should be like (my husband being the other). I just didn't know that (or that I was daddy's girl until I ran away err I mean moved away for college).

Oh right, the point... Dad called tonight to discuss some things and mom took the phone to tell me that she saw my newest picture on FB (it's also my picture here) AND SHE TOLD ME THAT I LOOK GREAT! This being the nicest thing she's probably ever said to me. She even asked if I could print a copy of the picture for her since she'd really like to have one. WOW. MY mother? Is she a pod person?

So go hug your loved ones and do all the things you want to do in your life before the world ends, cuz it just might!!

Hopefully she'll never join this site and read this (fortunately for me she's pretty computer illiterate, Dad signs her in to FB) even though I think she'd benefit from not only WLS but also this site. I'd recommend the sleeve for her... though she loves to be non-compliant on health issues, maybe she's a DS candidate? :P

Okay, I'm done, GOOD NIGHT NEVER LAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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07/19/2010
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