JennaKopanyi
Changes
Jan 11, 2011
It's the weird things that you tend to notice as your appearance changes. Like my eyes seem huge in more current pictures, because my cheeks were so fat that they were hiding my eyes, making me appear to be squinting. I'm still getting used to seeing my eyes look so big and shifting my idea of personal beauty. What appears bug-eyed at first (to me) will eventually turn into , oh I have large, lovely eyes.Even at my heaviest, I never saw myself as unattractive, I'm a Leo, I'm all ego, but now I look back at pictures I thought at the time I looked great in, and I have to ask myself who is that girl? Did I believe she was beautiful, because I don't now. I love the new external me. My internals are still under recontruction, will probably always be, but I love that new me too, I think because she's not changing, she's evolving. There are so many things I hated about me when I was thin, most of which was that I was superficial and mean. I don't want to go back to that, and the more secure I am in who I am, and how happy I am, the less chance I have to worry about her resurrection.
And I am, happy that is. My life is almost perfect, and it's perfect enough for now.
In the future, however...
I would like a house (we have a condo right now)
I would like a healthy pregancy resulting in a daughter (if I can't be specific on what would bring me most joy, why bother?)
I would like to get a new car (mine is almost 11 years old and dying)
I would like to write full time
and I would like to get my teeth straightened
That's a pretty short list to lead to perfect happiness, but it's all I need. I already have the worlds greatest husband, the most amazing little boy, exceptional friends, and my health.
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About Me
Harpers Ferry, WV
Location
22.5
BMI
Surgery
07/19/2010
Surgery Date
Oct 21, 2010
Member Since
Before & After
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