kikislove2
I didn't know I was a pig!
Mar 11, 2011
So, I'm really close to my surgery date, 11 days and counting! I decided to start trying to train myself to eat very small bites, and eat slowly. I cannot believe just how hard it is! I feel like such a pig. I asked myself, if this is so hard, then what did I look like before when eating? What did I look like when eating lunch at work. I can just imagine being this huge monstrous person scouffing down every morsel of my food in 2.2 seconds. I wanted to cry. Then, OMG, to take small sips of my liquids almost sent me into an anxiety attack, seriously. It just makes me wonder how on earth will I be able to do this after surgery if it's so hard now? Lord knows I don't want to lose control and burst my pouch because I'm such a greedy gut that I can't slow down to chew my food well enough. Ok, enough self loathing. I'm still very excited. I'll keep practicing and I won't give up. I guess this was just an eye opener for me, some self realization. I pray for strength to do this properly. It's odd that I don't fear over eating or sticking to the program, not now anyway. So far this is what consumes my thoughts. Oh well, practice makes perfect. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated.
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Surgery
03/23/2011
Surgery Date
Mar 04, 2011
Member Since
Before & After
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324 lbslbs
230 lbslbs
