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Well, just a note to say I am disgusted w/myself. I had lost 80 and have regained 30.  I still cannot eat that much at a time, but make wrong choices.  I seem to get sick after only a few bites of food and stop eating. But....after a half hour or so I can resume eating, even though not much.    I walk once or twice a day, but that is not enough to lose the weight. I need to go back on liquid protein (although my can expired...wonder if it's ok to use)  Each day I awake with renewed resolve, but that doesn't last long.  After each meal I still get so sleepy I must lay down to nap...seems like I am going into a coma and feel drugged.  My IBS is back too...I go, like maybe 10 times a day.  Had to pack away all my size 12's and buy 16s and 18s. Oh I hate that. Don't know why I can't stick with the program.  I am even lax with my vitamins....on again off again...geesh, whatsawrong with me?

I AM trying to eat better. I am too preoccupied with the thought of food. Have to stay busy.
I finally got my 11 yr old grandson to post me and my hubby's picture since the 80 lb weightloss. So we are the old ones in my photo group. The others are my red-headed daughter and her son, Hayden, my grandson Andrew and my doggie, "Honey".  It's hybernation time for me....fall thru end of winter.  Can't do it though, as I have to keep moving, exercising.
Going on a 12 day vacation soon, so have to watch myself.  Today weighed 182..........yikes!!!!      again

pouch a little bigger but not enough to warrant revision...all looked ok except have ulcers in there. Taking generic Prilosec now.  I don't get sick as much, but can unfortunately eat more. Gaining weight...oh dear God!!! Discouraged about that.
Trying to eat better...more protein. Taking my vit. faithfully. Need to increase water.  Hungry all the time!!! Shucks!

Ok.........got to 170 and stopped.  In last 3 mo started gaining. Now up 12 lbs. Freaking out!!!  Want to eat too much, too often. I exericise a lot, but appetite out of control sometimes. Can't eat a lot , but not right. Not getting all my protein and water.  Having endoscopy on fri to check out pouch. If mech. failure somehow will seek revision my surgeon has said. If all ok with endo..............well, I'll really have to get back on tract for sure.  Discouraging to gain......

Still get reallllllllll sleepy after meals.

Will write after endo.

Well, haven't been on site for quite a while. I haven't lost anything since Oct. Stuck at 170 still. Haven't gained though. I am sad that I am HUNGRY most of the time. Well, what it is, I am never satisfied. I get full and must stop eat, but within a few minutes I want to eat.........it seems I cannot get the feeling of satisfaction from anything. I must call dr. on that one.

I have to admit I don't keep tract exactly of my protein the way I should. I've been trying to get both shakes in, but sometimes only one.  I want to much all the time on some'em.

My hair is thin and fine like baby hair. Trying to remember to take all vitamins, including hair ones. I've always had thick course hair so this is awful for me.  My skin looks wrinkly.........well, I am 58, but never really had big wrinkles. Now I feel like I'm approaching being a SHARPEI !!!  Spending some bucks on skin creams and makeup, but I know it's the weight loss. My hair bothers me more though. I've cut some, but perhaps need to cut more.

Have the flu/cold now, hope immune system isn't down.  Haven't been able to do my daily walks for a week and sure miss it. I look forward to that each day. If it weren't for that I prob. would have gained by now. Yikes!

My goal is 25 more pounds...seems illusive. I'm wearing 14 & 12's. Have ugly lower tummy and upper under arms....hate that cause I love sleeveless tops and wonder how summer will be.

Today is Oct. 9th. Tomorrow I'm 58!!!! Yikes!   Almost 11 mo. out. Weight 170. Been stuck here for a while now. Still walking, dancing.  I think about food a lot. Wish I didn't. Have a lot of hip/back pain and taking meds for it which leave me sleepy a lot. Waiting for apptment with orthopedic dr. I was hoping to get to 165 by anniversary date of Nov 14th. Don't know. Still in 14's some 12's.

Have my blood tests in a couple weeks and see Dr.Lamar Nov 3 for my yearly checkup. Hope all is ok with bloodwork and no problems.

Still happy for this surgery, but wish I had more energy. Need to get a parttime job, as hubby is retiring at end of Nov.

Looking forward to a Mexico 7 day cruise Nov 16th. My first one!

Okay.....here I am 9 1/2 mo. out. My last weight was 172.4, down from 251. I haven't been walking as much lately....feeling tired and have had bad cold. I still walk, but not as long, so I need to do better. I started taking a ballroom dance lesson and go 1 or 2 times to dance with some senior citizens (a real safe place too) at  a senior center. It is such a delight for me to dance....I don't care if they are old folks, if they can dance and are respectful that's great. Need to get hubby involved. So, it burns calories faster than walking.  I'd have lost more, but I keep snacking, as I feel hungry so much.....real or head hunger...don't know.  And...I have this sleeping problem. I get up in night and eating helps me to get back to sleep.  Think I'm sabotageing myself.  I'm still shopping my buns off. Some of my finds are too big now, so have to find a person who fits them. I am in 14 and some 12's now...yippy, down from 22/24's. Have 25 more to go poundwise.  Problema: my wrinkles are really showing...don't like that much.  That's it for now. Hope to have more off by year anniversary.
Want to stay healthy MOST IMPORTANTLY.

May 14th was my 6 mo. anniversary. I am down 71 pounds since 2 wks before surgery. I'm still walking and find I look forward to it every single day. Trying to find new things to workout. Last night went to a salsa dance class. I sweat up a storm...fun.

My labs came back all good. Grateful for that. I need to watch my fluids.Sometimes I think I'm falling a bit short on intake. My clothes are getting big again. I'm wearing mostly 14's and some 16's, a few 12 if they are stretchy!  Sometimes I look in the mirror and think, wow, I haven't seen myself this small since I was 18..never seen myself as an older adult this size. I have 35 more pounds to go to goal weight set by Dr. Lamar. wonder if I'll get there.

I still have a few eating problems. I think I get real hungry and don't eat slow enough sometimes. Got real sick in WalMart..had a couple sips of light lemonade a few fries and bite of hamburger and got sick. I stopped eating. I proceeded to shop and got so sick I thought I'd hurl in store. I went to dressing room area and asked for papertowels, a bag and a seat in the room to get sick. I did just that and boy was I sick.....lesson learned. Drinking even a sip is enough to get me gross.  Another problem is after I eat I get extremely sleepy......maybe low b.sugar. I am better if I lay down for a while.

I'm grateful for this surgery. I hope I can keep this weight off and stay healthy.  Having hip and low back pain, which I need to address. Hip exray was good, so I suspect is back problems. Also, tailbone pain from weightloss in butt is really bad. Have to get donut pillow.

All in all.........I'm very glad I made this surgery decision. It was a difficult one to make, but thus far..............I'm happy with results. Now, if I could just stop eating jelly beans!! Have to go to Sprouts to find sugar free!

Been stuck at 185 for about a month or longer. Man, I just don't get it. Still walking each day. Perhaps inches are coming off though. Happily I've found a lot of thriftstore goodies and clothes are fitting well. Now into 14's and some 12's. I wish the weight would drop. I see Dr. Lamar on May 5th to check my blood. Hope all is ok. Still have eating issues. Get sick often with the mucus things. I don't just get full, I get sick. 

I'm glad I did surgery. No regrets......yet!

Well, I had another stricture. Knew I did for a month, but kept hoping I was wrong. Had it fixed 2/22/08. It was so tight Dr. said he wondered how I even got liquids down. Well, last few days I didn't. When shakes came up, I knew I had to act. Also have ulcers again, so back on Prevacid and Carafate...Argh! Doing better now, but still find when I first start to eat....it sort of backs up..I then wait a few minutes and try again. Meat is still problematic for me. I've been at 195 for about one and half weeks, hope it moves soon.I'm down from 251, so that's 56 lb.  I'm still walking each day and have increased to 2 mi. Arms are flabby and I need to concentrate on those arm weights more ..hope that helps the bat wings! People are commenting how how much I've lost. I'm getting used to being smaller now and don't notice as much, but my clothes tell the story. Having fun replacing old stuff w/new....or some thift store goodies. Have found some really good stuff. It is fun treasure hunting!Bathing suits are out in stores now....hum...I don't know about that. My thighs look kinda cottagecheesy (maybe that is because I eat so darn much of it HA). Still have a time getting all protein and water in. It's a daily struggle and goal to meet each day. So far I'm happy for my results and hope to get healthier each day!!!