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Today is my first fill, I am a little nervous but I am also excited about getting some more restriction. I will edit this post later with details on how it went! 

 So, this has not been such a great week. I did not get my protein in on Saturday or Sunday and then Monday I was sicker than a dog. I took phenegran to keep from vomitting (a slip is my worst fear), but that made me sleep all day. Then on Tuesday I had NO appetite and I had to force my self to get my nutrition in. Today I am determined to do better. Exercize? you ask... Again Saturday and Sunday - nothing unless you count building a deck, and then Tuesday I did walk 5 miles.

Oh and did I mention I also have not journaled ANYTHING since Friday?

Yeah I better get back on the BALL

 Nahhh, because I plan on becoming a permanent citizen of ONDERLAND! I actually made it there yesterday, but I did not want to get my hopes up too much when it said 199.4, because I know that it will fluctuate a little bit. But today I am at 198.2 and I am officially celebrating my new adventure in the Land of Oneder that I have not seen in years!

 Oh, no... It is just my stomach growling. Ok so I am finally hungry, and I would just assume not be, not just head hunger - that I recognize - but the loud hear it across the room stomach hunger. I am 18 days in and I have 13 days until my first fill. 

Good News....
I broke into the land of Oneder. I just hope that with the added calories yesterday and today that it stays there (btw added calories means I am around 700-750 instead of 600-675)

 Jaxmom brought up the idea of mini-goals on the forum today and that makes me say hmmmmm.....

This is a good idea, but one I have never excelled at, I am so obsessed with the scale some times it is hard for me to set up mini goals that are not scale related. Oh, I can tell you in a heart beat what my

Mini Scale Goals 
**3/31/2010 199- oh to be in onderland (the scale is playing with me at 200.2)
**5/24/2010 179 - to be "obese" again
**7/20/2010 165 - the weight I was at on Phen-phen and when I went skiing last time and was not exhausted
153 - to be "overweight"
137 - the weight my driver's license says (yeah right why do they not make you update that, I lied 20 years ago when I put it there)
127 - to be "normal"
125 - a weight I never remember being
115 - my goal weight according to the charts


Non Scale Mini Goals (a work in progress list)
**4/28/2010 To be able to wear the XL shirt that the band ordered me instead of the XXL when we go on the trip 5/13
**May 2010 To be able to comfortably wear my size 18 jeans all day
**April 2010 To be able to run (any amount at all, without a child screaming for help)
**May 2010 To be able to walk up the stairs at school without sucking wind
**7/18/2010 Run a 5K in under 45 min
**6/15/10 To Be able to shop in Misses instead of Womens
To Wear single digit clothing

If you had asked me, when I went for my consult on March 2nd,  if I expected to enter the world of onderland within 2 weeks after surgery, I would have said "of course not, that would be unreasonable". But when 10 days after surgery the scale read 200.8 that is exactly what my expectations became. So everyday when I got on the scale and the numbers kept going up it was hard to not become a little frustrated. Logically I know that TOM and starting soft foods have more to do with that than anything, once my body adjusts again I will head back in the right direction -- it was only 2lbs there is no reason to freak out, but unfortunately the other less logical side of my brain was SCREAMING "WHHAAAATTT....." Fortunately the logic side did win this time and said "on 600-800 cal a day and walking every day it WILL move in the right direction just give your body time to adjust to the changes, drink your water, track your protein and keep moving"

So this morning 5 days after hitting it the first time the scale once again hit 200.8 lb. What are my expectations now? Well I expect to be in onderland tomorrow, of course!  But if not, I will keep doing what I am supposed to do and I will see it soon!

 Ok, so I am no better at keeping up this log than I am any other of my logs...

So here is my life so far, went for my 1st post-op appointment and I had lost 16lbs. since my consult appointment. I was suprised at how shocked people were by that. But, I had developed an allergic reaction to something and that turned out to be the anti-bacterial soap I had been using since surgery.

Although, I did get fussed at because I thought I was not supposed to eat soft foods until Friday, but apparently I was supposed to start at Day 8. Also, I was not getting enough protien in during the day.

So now, after starting soft foods my weight has rebounded a couple of pounds, I am trying really hard to not become discouraged -- but its hard.

I am focused on getting my protein in and walking everyday.

 So here is the story up to today...
Tuesday March 2nd (218.8) my DH and I went to see Dr. Davidson in Dallas.
              That morning I commented to my husband that I had lost about 5 lbs that week and I wondered if it had to do with my TOM. We drove the 3.5 hours to the BSC met with Dr. Davidson and his great staff. He agreed to do surgery in the middle of March and that I did not have to go to the preop class. (we attribute this to the massive amount of research we did before we got there). The only available day during my spring break was on Friday so I opted to have surgery the Friday before March 12th. It was not until the guy said 10lbs in 10 days - you can do that. OH CRAP that is in 10 days!

Wednesday March 3rd (216.4) first day of the PreOp Diet
              AdVacor shake for breakfast - took me a while to get it down (3hrs)
              Lunch at 1:00  Turkey sandwich on flatbread from subway -probably waited too long, I thought I was going to strangle someone 
               Dinner at 6:30 - Shake number 2 for dinner - did not take as long as breakfast but still about an hour.

Thursday March 4th (214.4) Day 2 PreOP
             Day 2 same as day 1 except ate earlier and not quite so cranky - only difference is I also drastically cut back on drinking tea/caffine (only 1/2 a glass so far)