So this is "banders' hell"

Jun 25, 2009

Wow. I'm hungry. It's been 8 days since surgery. I still have this really weird lump at the port incision. It feels like I'm pregnant and the spawn is wedged until my ribs. Kalli and I went to see Mamma Mia last night and it was oddly uncomfortable to be sitting. Luckily there was the sing-a-long at the end so I could be up!. But after a week of just feeling pretty crappy, I'm just oddly hungry. I'm supposed to be on clear fluids and I'm trying so hard! I had whey this morning and at noon. I've had a couple of large glasses of water and I'm driking a Vitamin Water (10) at the moment.

I don't really have an urge to eat, just hunger pangs. I don't see Dr. Ganta until next Thursday (since i'll be in San Antonio at a conference for most of the week). Holy crap, I hope I make it! I just want to be able to move to cream soups. I did have about six bites of broccoli soup from Chili's yesterday. I'm not sure why I thought it was a good idea to have a business lunch. I think it was okay, I didn't feel too bad afterwards.

Something this whole deal seems so daunting. I think that I must be pretty lame that I have to physically barricade myself from overeating. It's like putting a lock on the refrigerator or something. But I'm at 39 lbs down and that feels really good. I'm trying to dig out clothes from the recesses of the closet and drawers to cheer me up. I guess it's too late to turn back now.

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