The first post-op visit

Jul 02, 2009

I met wtih Dr. Ganta yesterday. He said that I'm healing well and everything is on track. I'm down 25 lbs since my last pre-op visit. It's weird how easy it is to look back and say, "oh, that wasn't so bad" when it's pretty miserable in the process. This week was tough. I was in San Antonio for the conference. On Monday night, I wandered for an hour looking for a bowl of soup (finally found at Chili's, of all places). I didn't eat lunch at the conference because I didn't think I was ready to be at a table of people eating, even if I was missing a great networking opportunity. I honestly hate being hungry. I get so ill-tempered. Now that I'm officially on soft foods, it's better. 

I made the baked ricotta. I used fat free cream cheese instead of low fat (big mistake, it's just mush). It's pretty good when I re-bake it with spaghetti sauce. Last night, I ground some cooked chicken and made different incarnations of chicken salad. Again, pretty good.

The head hungry is so strange. I think some of it is fading. I'm really glad I gave up diet coke before this whole thing started. That really showed me that I could give up something that I really liked. There were times that I wanted one but I could talk myself out of it. I guess I'm doing the same with food now. There are weird times when it's very hard. Last night, James had a big bowl of pasta for carbing before his long ride this morning. I wanted to ask him to eat somewhere else but decided to weather through it. Ugh. Miserable. That was my last binge before the pre-op diet (just pasta and sauce). I haven't had refined flour in over a month now. I'm pretty much off of sugar, unless I don't know it's in there. I didn't realize that the HEB vitamin water had caffeine; otherwise I've been caffeine free.

There's a lot of stress in the other areas of my life and I miss having food to turn to. I honestly think that, had I not been banded, I'd be in a weight gain mode now. I'm very happy that I did it because the thought of being 300+ lbs scares me. I'm down to 274.5 at the doctor's office and 272 at home this morning. Next goal is 269.5. Next goal after that is 267 (50 lbs).

I found out that he put 2 cc in my band at surgery. Somehow that made me feel a little better, that I had some help on the way out. And my steri-strips are now gone so I can swim again! So, life is getting better I think...just slowly.

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