Yesterday (9/28) - Not Feeling Guilty But....

Sep 29, 2009

I'm not quite sure what I am feeling. Truth be told I am phsyically hungry.  I think regardless of surgery or not it's still possible to be physically hungry.

We were told that it will be possible to have things in the pureed stage that should most likely be avoided later but I'm still staying away from mashed potatoes. I'm still trying to make good choices that have protein etc.  Yesterday my weakness was a little bit too much cheese mixed into my purees which caused the calories to creep up.  Overall I was at 1020 calories yesterday above the suggested range of 600-800 but of course 1K calories is nothing compared to my before surgery 3-4K calories a day living off fast food in the end there! 

I prefer to get my protein in by eating and not drinking.  I don't want to drink my calories and I am still not able to drink any of the shakes I had before surgery.  I'm sure and I hope this will pass since I still have a ton but It's not something I prefer.  To add my extra protein, I do the Unjury Chicken Soup which is WAY tolerable with the same amount of protein as the shakes.

Yesterday I just felt crappy all day...issue was I didn't eat much during the day because I didn't feel well.  I tried the whole grain Cream of Wheat Maple Sugar and it made me sick...the taste the texture everything! I didn't even eat the full serving and threw it away and then ended up nauseous with a headache the rest of the day at work.

So when I got home, I was ravenously hungry and any meat and cheese I had to pureed I ate.  I even pulled one of my old stunts by waking up and eating!  Damn it! I woke up from falling asleep on the couch and at some SF/FF Edy's fake ice cream. A couple of spoonfulls but still, I woke up this morning and was like, Did I really get up in the middle of the night and eat? WTF not that starting again!  That has been the major cause of my rollercoaster of weight gain for many many years.

Well today I am still tired and hope I don't have a night like last one. I packed everything for lunch today and I'e got my fruit, beans, greek yogurt, and Unjury Chicken Soup.  One of my indulgences which is almost gone is crab and spinach dip from Phillips.  This is getting me into a little trouble but I won't throw it out.  It's good source of protein but I think in the future I will just make my own so I don't worry about the additives.  I could have easily eaten that whole entire small frozen bowl full in 2 mins before...now I am measuring every TBLS and it's lasted me 4 days so far and will probably last another day or two.

Tonight I have my group nutrition class and I weigh in on their scale so we'll see if there is any progress from last Tues.  Need to try to get all my fluids in today.  I was short yesterday!   Update more after my class and the weigh in! 

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