Should I, or Shouldn't I?

Apr 02, 2019

This week has been hard. Last week I had a high when I realized for the first time ever I weighed less than my husband at 186.0 even though I am much taller than him. But then over the weekend I got my visitor which put on weight, I was in pain so didnt go to the gym. And was depressed so I ended up eatting some things I shouldnt have. Today I got on the scale and im back to 187.

All day long I was batteling if I should go to the gym or not. I really did not feel up to it. I was supposed to go somewhere so I used that as an excuse to not go but then that fell threw, than I said opps I forgot my water bottle so i tried to use that as an excuse not to go, I procrastinated at work. As I was walking to my car getting ready to head home i finally convinced myself to stop trying to put it off and just go. It is hard when you get off work to go and spend a few hours at the gym, come home and try and take care of everything you have to take care of before going to bed. This is the main reason I did not feel up to going to the gym today. This and of course that sneaky "Lazy self" that keeps showing her ugly head. 

When I got to the gym I decided to try and push my times. Hey, after all if i push my times not only will my workout be better but I will get home that much faster. Well it sorta backfired. I did manage to push my times. However I also increased some of my exercises lol. Shrugs ohh well thats a good thing too.

After finishing I was so glad that I won this battle. It's an ongoing battle. One that I am determined not to lose. Even though my "Lazy Self" keeps showing up I am determined to not let her take control. She might win sometimes. But for the most part she will be stuffed way down deep in my gym bag while I am crushing this weight. 

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