January 10, 2009

Jan 09, 2009

My new job is a challange and a joy.  Okay, I have only done my first week... and a 50 hour week at that. (Which won't be unusual 8 months out of the year with this job.)   The employees are up to the usual tricks and dodges, only now I am the one who has to chase them and keep them on task.  I find it funny not everyone acts like adults at our age! 

Before I made Lead, I used to have to squeeze in my Facilitator time for my core team meetings and work... between my regular job.  Now, I can actually take some time to do the paperwork and meeting planning.  THAT alone is lovely.  I also am moving all the time.  I hope that helps keep me in my weight control.  I come home exhuasted.  I am still not up to par with having had surgery and then all that time off.  I also cannot lift or push a lot of things.  Shocking that I literally cannot lift it.  I am not strong enough!  I really used to put my weight into things.  To use it as leverage.  It is nolonger there to benifit me.  I think the Lead job came at the right time.  It is not so much brut labor, and my brain feels lifted and used. 
I read two books last weekend.  I went out last night and bought three more.  I cannot wait to get them open.  Mostly stuff on motivating employee's and stratagy in the workplace.  It may sound like a dry read... but, the fact it isn't about food and weight loss and everything that keeps me in my old world is just the enlightenment I need. 

I am struggling to balance my eating with my being back at work and knowing how much protien and carbs to put in me to keep my brain and body going through the day without overdoing it... or more likely happening, under doing it.  Two nights this week I came home over tired and grumpy.  I had only packed a oatmeal packet, a grapefruit and some turkey.  I had no afternoon snack, and tried to suppliment my exhaustion with coffee.  That didn't work.  It is time to restock my locker with peanutbutter and protien bars for just such times. 
Again, I just don't want to have to think about food and I definately don't want to get unbalanced and crash.  I am looking forward to this year being one of better challanges than just weight.  I want it full of opportunities at work and maybe, someday in the start of a love life.  (Ha ha)  I just don't see it.  But, I feel it. 

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