February 1st, 2012

Jan 31, 2012

I was just reminded it was my 6th year anniversary. 
I have been so busy with work and family that I completely forgot.  It actually happens.  You forget the Journeys start.. the tears and struggles of back then.  What is happening now is that I still take my vitamins, watch what I eat, jackrabbit up and down with the same nasty 10 pounds that keep me worried enough to stay conscious of my eating and exercise.
What else is up?  I am getting ready to travel for work and lead a team in Pennsylvania for a week.. then I come home for  a week and then pack again for work to travel to Kentucky for 5 weeks. 
I also have just fully recovered from having breast reduction surgery in October.  I felt it was the last step in putting together a body I could live with.  It is awesome! 
In case you were wondering... I was a 40 triple g when I went in, and I am not a 40 d.  My incredible surgeons gave me a Anchor cut, nipple graft, muscle strap breast lift.  I had to do the nipple graft (cut them off... reshape the breast and then put them back on),  Had to because my breast had fallen soooooo much that they couldn't do a lift without  this step.  So I have no feeling in my nipples, and the left one healing made the center a little funny looking.... but, I feel good about how they look.  Honestly I don't wear a bra.  The way they shaped them, I don't have to.  It hurts to put a bra over them and irritates the scar line.  Whoever would have told me I would ever leave my bedroom in my life without a bra on .... I would have thought was crazy!  But, I bought a lot of Cami's and layer my clothes.. and I feel fantastic. 
6 years and I have a different life.  Livable.  I don't mean perfect.  I don't mean without everyday problems.. but, I do look forward to the good times and getting up and going out every day. 
Last year my goal was to stop telling people I was busy and except every invitation I was given.  I did it!  I would stress and fuss and feel so self conscious before every outing... but, I went on EVER ONE.  Hikes and parties and theater. I learned a lot about going for it and how much better I felt after I came home. 
This year I have goaled myself to look up when I walk.  to look people in the eyes more and not avoid eye contact when in public places.  I have the whole year to gt this.  I was out in Seattle last weekend and we walked Pike Place and across the water front.  I Tell you, I wasn't perfect and I did have a hard time knowing who to look at and who to avoid. (IE., urine stained men, Blue haired woman with exposed butt in 35 degree weather.)  But, when doing a transaction with a veggie vender.. I held my own.  LOL 
Wherever you are in your journey... know it only gets better.. and a lot of the goldeness you will obtain is unforeseeable.  You just don't know the little pieces of magic along the way. 
Luv you all..

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