Cindy W.

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It was a breeze ! Dr. Lord was right {as usual} I didn't feel a thing . Plus I reached my first mini goal of having 30 lbs. off in six weeks . I am so thankful for having this surgery . I go back in Jan. and I want to have 20 lbs. off by then . Things are really looking up !

Word for the day "finally" ! Last Wed. { finally} I started soft/pureed foods , mashed up eggs,chicken, advocodos {I really like advocodos!} and cheese. I feel like I'm on top of the world eating that after being on liquids for a month. I thought my biggest problem would be taking 20 - 30 minutes to eat and that has actually been a breeze . I've been measuring my food and {like my nut.says} keeping it to a 1/4  of a cup or a little over each meal . Finally , you can tell I've lost weight and my clothes are fitting looser....Yahoo ! I want so much to have 7 lbs. off before I go for my first fill on Dec. 1st . That would put me down {by my scales without clothes and shoes } 30 lbs. Their scales I weigh 3 lbs. more with clothes and shoes. This is such a good feeling !

Yep ! I am back in the swing of things - I went shopping this week !  Wed. night I went to the support group meeting and it was fun .  They had a buffet of low fat  WLS friendly foods and the program was on how to make the right choices and eat healthy during the holidays . They had a drawing { I think four } for prizes and Dr. Lord at the end of the program answered questions and people told of their success in handling their fears {of surgery ,travel to different countries , etc....} of failing. I left feeling what an inspiriation !  I think this must be the best support system in the whole country !

 Today I feel almost normal again ! The pain in my left side has hardly bothered me at all ..... I am so happy ! If I feel as well tomorrow I'm going to drive somewhere. I have only been out of the house 3 times since surgery , not that I go all that much but its just the feeling knowing I'm able to drive again... it makes it so much better knowing I'm that much closer to being completely healed and on with my journey . It has not been bad at all on liquids the test will come when I start on soft / pureed foods .hummm I have a couple of more weeks to work that out .

10/27 Went for my post-op today and everything went well. Dr. Lord was very nice and assured me That my port would never flip and when I go for a fill it wasn't going to hurt ! that assurance felt so good ! I go the first of Dec. Everyone assured me my pain would go away soon . It really isn't that bad - I just can't get out of bed by myself and it hurts when I go from a sitting to a standing position but I think by next week it will be better . I have lost 12 lbs. along with all the "assurance" I had when I left the office I was on cloud nine ! I feel great and I know by the time I go back it will be even better .

This morning I actually got out of bed by myself !  My attitude is a lot better and my sensitivity seems to have slacked up a bit ....hey I'm always gonna cry about something but at least I'm off the "poor me" rant . I'm back to being one tough chick again and it feels good ! My incesions are healing better than expected I have had no problems with keeping my fluids down and no nausea . I've been told my fatty liver is nothing to worry about and will probably shrink and best of all I DON"T HAVE THE URGE TO EAT ! I think I am excited about that last one most of all ! And if I think Dr. Lord's bedside manner was a little lacking so what ! The man is a genius ! I don't think I would feel as well as I do if he wasn't as awesome at his work as he is. At this point I have no "buyers remorse" the pain and expense were all worth it , everything is looking pretty darn good !

This has been my surgery experience :
First let me say I think I had a very competent surgeon and before the surgery he was very nice , his nurse and other surgical staff were wonderful and very efficient . But after surgery ........
I had lap band surgery and I realize some Drs. do not even require an over night stay and I also realize it is only suppose to take about an hour for my surgery ..... but sometimes things happen  and in my case it did. After the surgery later that evening the Dr. came into my room to tell me how it went. I believe he did ask me how I was feeling then he proceeded to tell me it took him as long to do my surgery as an RNY that I had scare tissue he had to trim back and that I had a huge liver .It was not so much what he said but how he said it . I felt no compassion from him it was like it was my fault personally that it took so long . AM I SO WRONG to think after all I have been through an ounce of  compassion would have been out of place ? Even a "its going to get better" would have been apreciated.
#1 When I went for my consultation I told him I had gallbladder surgery ten years ago and had complications and had to spend time in the hospital . He looked at my scarrs and said he could work around it. DID HE NOT EVEN THINK THERE MIGHT BE SCARR TISSUE ?
#2 I told him I had a small hyatial hernia he said he could work around it.
#3 I did all the steps bloodwork - everything I was suppose to do to get ready for this surgery nothing indicated I had a huge liver - everything turned up normal so HOW WAS I SUPPOSE TO KNOW I HAD A HUGE LIVER ?
I know with my surgery taking so long it probably put him behind and messed up his day and he was probably tired - for that I am sorry . 
#4 I also realize  {now after the fact } being self pay put me at risk. If anything drastic would have happened to me my insurance probably would not have payed for it  and I an lucky to have had such a good surgeon . For that I am grateful . 
#5 But my point  in all this rant is I am a human being and I have feelings. 
Even the dietician came by the day after my  surgery and brought me a stuffed teddy bear and wished me well - I thought that was so nice !

10/16/06  Here I  am on the second day of my liquid diet and I still have my hair ! I thought I surely would have pulled it out but this afternoon but so far so good.Tomorrow will be another story ! Then Wed. is the DAY ! I can't wait to get it over with. I am scared but not about the surgery but what lies ahead . First let me say I have no regretts I refuse to live my life on the terms of "what could have been". But the old "what ifs" sure like to creep into my mind. So here goes what if : I am the ONE who has to have the band taken out ? OK I said it naked fear is starring at me ! The thought of that happening petrafies me . Me who has always been so conservative  - hey I married an accountant you can't get more conservative than that  and then wasting all that money {I am self pay} just to be back at ground level on the dieting playing field of life . Not sounding very positive at this point huh ? These are just thoughts running through my mind and its not even all that much about the money its about the failure . So THAT said I will shine a different light on the subject : I am married to a wonderful man a man who is smart talented and never fails at what he sets his mind to do .OK  so he isn't to good at laying tile ! but he learned to fly does excellent carpentary work and is a whiz at anything mechanical. He's kind and he stands by me and most important of all I KNOW he loves me that should be enough to give me the courage to be successful at this. Doesn't the old saying go life begins at fify ? and fifty is the "new" thirty? If I don't try at this I will never know. And I refuse to live my life with regretts !  OOPS ! I mean fifty is the new 40 but Hey I like 30 better !