Everchanging
Day 1
Mar 04, 2012
Then i had a late lunch,I had two pieces of ribs and a large salad with two tablespoon of fat free thousand island dressing and a cup of grapes.When i spoke to the nurse practitioner at my last visit.She told me that i could have snacks as long as they were healthy.I can't have no RICE,BREAD,PASTA,CAKES,COOKIES,ICE CREAM.Right now not its all about the shakes and eating as healthy as possible so that i can lose some more weight before my surgery.I'm going to follow the rules to the best of my ability because i want to make sure that i don't have open vsg.Not only that i know that this is to help shrink my liver which is going to help lessen the complication factor if its not in the way.So so far today has been pretty good,I don't feel deprive like i thought i would,I still have a shake to drink but I'm going to drink that later probably around 9 when i should start feeling hungry again.I still have another 32oz to drink before the day is over,I also have another Greek yogurt that I'm saving for later as well just in case i get hungry.If i don't need it then I'll just save it for tomorrow.So far today i have gotten in 39 grams of protein between the shake and the yogurt.I'm feeling pretty good,I ask that GOD give me the strength that the next seven days are just this good.
I know that i need this tool to aid in my weight loss,However the last few days I've been wondering if vsg is the right surgery for me.Maybe i should have rny or ds.These are the things that have been running around in my head.I've research all the surgies with the exception of lap band because that was never an option for me,Maybe that's just my nerves getting the best of me.I just want to be successful I've been overweight since i was 15 years old and I'm tired of being tired.I know that everything will be alright and that my faith is going tho bring me past this but sometimes you can't help your mind pulling in every other direction.I guess the official countdown can start 9 more until my surgery and i four more work days.I guess that all i have to say for now,Until next time.
-Miss New Body-
5 Months,Getting really Close....
Jan 31, 2012
What i did different was that i walked more,I still ate what i wanted however i STOPPED when i was feeling full and that made a difference.Instead of eating to the feeling of being over full i just stopped and put the rest of whatever i was eating up for the next day.I also drank a lot more water and i was eating a lot more yogurt,I think a combo of all of that worked in my favor.Now if i could lose another 10.2 pounds that will be totally awesome.I can't believe how close my dated is,March 13th is right around the corner.I just have to stay focus and keep doing what i need to do in other to be on the loser bench.I'm nervous and excited all at the same time,I know that all praises are due to god because it was his strength that is keeping me strong and pulling me through all of this.
Anyway i'm on vacation right now and i decided to come and surprise my cousins down in Arizona,So i'll be down here until next week then i'm going back to work.This was a much needed break,I came to do some shopping and some eating within in moderation of course.Im trying to maintain my lost ,I'm not trying to gain anything.Even if i dont lose another 10 pounds i want to lose something for my last and final visit to next month.I can't thank everyone enough for there continued support i truly do appreciate you being on this journey with me.Until next time when we meet again,Congrats to all the newbies and those that recently got on the loser bench.
Everchanging.
4 1/2 months....
Jan 09, 2012
Two months already.....
Nov 30, 2011
Hi,How is everyone doing? First i want to thank everyone that has been sending me messages to check in on me,That was really sweet of you guys i really appreciated it.Congrats to all of you that have continued to lose weight,to those who have finally gotten a date and congrats to those who have finally made to the commitment to change there lives....Where should i start,Well i still didn't get my surgery being that my old PCP screwed me over,I had to start the whole six month PCP visits over.I got a new PCP back in Sept and I'm already going into my 4Th month.I just had my three month appointment today and I'm happy to say that i lost four pounds and I'm back down to 467....In Sept i started at 471,its been a slow process but thank god that I'm still losing.When i went to my meeting with the surgeon in august i was 472,So since then i have lost a total of 5 pounds.I'm trying but i can honestly say that I'm not putting my best foot forward when it comes to me and my weight loss.I've been watching what I'm eating but not working out as much as i use too.My PCP told me that he wants me to lose another 4 pound in December,Then we are going to totally kick it into high gear for JAN & FEB.I can't believe how fast these past couple of months are going by,Finally I'm getting excited but still taking things one day at a time back in Sept i went for my upper gi and had to wait two weeks for my results which came back positive for H-pylori bacteria.So i have to be on antibiotics which i have not gotten yet because I'm part time at my job and my full coverage with everything except prescription,So now i have to fin 500 dollars to pay for the antibiotics,I'm telling if its not one thing its another.However i already know that i don't have a choice,I'm just going to work a few extra shift so that i can get my meds,As far as weight loss that is everything that is going on there.My 27th birthday was about two weeks ago(11-17),I still believe that i'm freaking 27years old.Where have the time gone,Just yesterday i was 17.I celebrated by going out with my friends to a strip club and then the following night we went clubbing and i had totally too much alcohol but i had a blast.Thanksgiving was ok,I had to worked but last sunday we did a smaller dinner and everyone came over.It was just enough for everyone that was here,We laugh and had a good time.I've also decided that i'm going back to school for nursing or some form of counseling who knows i might do a double major.Dont get me wrong i love my JOB but its time for me to advance and get a CAREER,Time is not wanting on anyone and i'm not getting any younger.I dont want another three year to pass and i'm still in the same position but you know they say that nothing happens before its time and i'm totally starting to see that and i can truly see that its my time and i'm ready to accept it.Other then that nothing else has really been going on with me i've been keeping a low profile and just waiting for these next couples of months to go by.I will try to update again soon but i really dont have that much to say right now.
Upper GI
Sep 14, 2011
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No surgery...:(
Sep 13, 2011
Well when i was in his office he told me that he could not fill out my paper work because he had not seen on a month to month bases and that totally made me
because that's not what he told me in march.If i knew that he was going to change his mind i would have went to another pcp.So i called my surgeons office and spoke to the MA(Medical Assistant) and she told me to get a new PCP because the letter that he faxed over to them will get me denied and the fact that he don't wanna fill out the paper is not going to work in my favor.So I've done everything and now i have to do another six month of a supervised diet,I already found a new pcp and i will have my first appointment with him on the 21st and I'll explain everything to him when i go.So Feb 2012 will be my last month and then i can submit everything to my Ins,Thank god that everything I've done so far is still valid for a year.I'm bummed that i wont be getting my surgery towards the end of this month
but i know that everything happens for a reason.I know that everything is in god hands and this all probably happend for me to take care of everything that i need to do and tie up whatever lose ends i still have hanging around.Its only human nature where you will get sad about something that you have been looking forward too for a while only to have a bump put down in front of you.Even though im sad it will probably give me the next six months to save up even more money.Since i was planning on taking almost two months off work,So even though we want things when we want them God has something better in store for us.So that it can work out where everything goes perfectly....God has control over my life and i just have to keep the faith that everthing will work out.-Everchanging-
Psych Evaluation
Sep 08, 2011
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Getting Closer
Sep 05, 2011
However at this point nothing right now is set in stone,Although Carlton told me that Dr Herron does this all the time i have to wait until i get to that bridge before i get my hopes up about the financial aspect of everything.Last week i was very stress about the whole process but i know that i have to truly do this for myself.Don't get me wrong I'm still stressing about it but my level have come down from a 20 to a 8,Overall I've put everything in God's hand and i know that he will pull me through this.
I know that everything will be ok because i had a dream about having my surgery,I hope that i don't sound crazy,let me explain.I guess because being that i was thinking about it so much,I had a dream last week that i had surgery and i felt myself walking and i was talking to my surgeon and he told me that everything went well and that i had a textbook surgery.My pain my at a bare minimum,Over i know that I'm doing the right thing for me.I've been lucky in the fact that the only co-morbidity that i have is hypertension but i know that if i continue at this weight(472) it wont be long before other health issues arise.I knock on wood every day because i know that i could have a lot more health issues then i do.I've read on oh about people in my weight range who have a list of issues and i know that i can be in that same boat and i thank god everyday.Until next time everyone enjoy your day and HAPPY LABOR day...Summer is officially over.
-Everchanging-
Nutrionist Appointment.
Sep 01, 2011
Hi Oh'ers How is everyone doing today? I got just back from my nutritionist appointment not too long ago and everything went really well.We for what seems like forever,I think that i was in her office for almost two hours just talking about surgery stuff,family history and everything else in between.She really made me feel really comfortable about everything.I did have to get weight and my ass gain weight...I was like WTF are you serious.I saw my surgeon on august 1st i was 468,Now sept first I'm 472,That's a four pound gain in one month.I'm not happy about that at all,That just further lets me know that me having surgery is the best decision that i can make for myself.After the appointment she made me take a questionnaire which was pretty much about the stuff that we had talked about.Then she suggest that i come to one of there support groups to talk to other people who had surgery already and just listen to them talk about there experience and i think that i will do that.Now that the ball is rolling am getting more and more excited about the whole process.MIMI also gave me bunch of information to bring home and she also gave me some sample packages of vitamins and stuff.I had already gotten a sample package from Celebrate vitamins and she asked me if i was taking them already and i told her no that i wanted to Wait and run it by her first.She told me to go ahead and take them and start tasting them so that i can know which ones i like and don't like.So i have a few more steps and then I'll be on the losers bench in no time,Ive been over weight for 12 years its time that i find a new shell to be in.Until next time i have to go and catch some Zzz since I'm working tonight.
Everchanging
Finally Home...
Aug 29, 2011
Surgery update,It seems like I'm stressing even more now because I'm worried that this might not be the "TIME" for me to have surgery because of everything else going on.However everyone around me keeps reassuring me that if not know when.I have the best support team every.I know that everything is going to work out.I even had a friend offer for me to stay with her during my month of recovery and she will take care of me since we will be moving soon to a 4Th floor walk up and she said that since she lives on the first floor she will be my nurse.That's the sweetest thing ever almost made me cry,When you are dealing with something you really see who your true friends are.People may tell you that they are a "friend" but when the going gets tough you truly see who have your back,front and sides.I had to cancel my Nutritionist appointment last week because i didn't have the money to pay for it.So i have my appointment on Thursday and then the following week i have my upper GI and my psychology eval and then i have to get the letter from my PCP and that will be it for paper work and then its just the process of waiting.
I got a letter today from my INS company for the visit to the Dr office and the bill was 400 and they only covered 113 of it leaving a balance of 287 that i have to pay.I have to ask my surgeon about that because he told me that he was going to accept my ins,Anyway i guess at this point i have to do it because it seems like I'm getting heavier by the day.So i wonder if he just meant that he would take them and i would still have to do the co-pay.Whatever the case i don't have a choice because i NEED this surgery and i have to do it for me.So if that means that i have to work extra shift everyday until i can pay that future bill off that whats I'm going to do.Anyway that's all that's going on with me right now until next time
Everchanging
