Nicole B.

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Well the weight lose has slow down finally because my thyroid is normal again.  It was scary at first because I thought I would never slow down.  I am actually please with the overall weight and lack of hanging skin.  God has truly blessed my journey so far.  I started to increase my sugar intake to help the process so now I need to detox myself from the sugar high.  It will be easy because I have done it before.  

I have been bouncing between 140 and 150 now but deceided to get down another 15 pounds to really maintain the weight.  So i am going back to the prediet.  I lost lot a weight on that diet.  Get to the gym and let life roll ..

Overall, I am thankful for the many responds since posting my before and after pictures. You all give me strength and hope that I am not alone and i can help others by staying on task and providing support.  It is support for me too because only my OH friends and family truly understand the scope of what is going on in my head during the entire thing.  I just want to say that you all are my family and keep in touch anytime.  We need each other for a lifetime commitment.

Having a no stress and no negative life has also increased my outlook on life.  I have a wonderful man in my life that provides so much support and encouragement that I have no idea what it would be like without him.  Thanks L....

Anyway, all the other crap going on in my life... with the ever mounting financial problems and the pending divorce.. I dont know how I manage to keep going but God told me to let go and he will caught me.. And u know what he did......
 

What can I say?  I weigh under 150 lbs now. I can fit a size 7/8 pants, xs tops, 9 shoe size, and size 11 junior pants.  Yes junior size cltohes.  I cant believe this day is here so soon.  Just 6 months ago I was thinking I would spend the rest of my life being overweight not knowing how it felt to be accepted as thin.  It is strange because people treat you different. They dont ask me if I want food all the time or if I need to stop and rest when out.   In the beginning, i got upset at how people reacted to me but I know it is not their fault but society.

Anyway, overall I am struggling with eatin more protein and drink my water. I went to the gym once and my entire body was sore.  I need to get motivated to go again.  I need the strength training first.  Plus the stress of work n finances are getting to me.  I am about to let it all go bc my weight loss is more important to me right now

In general, this is still the best thing I ever did and I am enjoying the new experiences and new life challenges before me.  I feel like I am 22 years old and livin a life I should have done 18 years ago.   Thanks Gastric Bypass for giving me life again...

Well  today is good friday and I am happy to be alive and skinny. LOL.  I have been enjoying this new found body and happiness.  I need to get back on track with th eating because I have been absolutly BAD!  Eating all kinds of stuff and suffering through the nausea.  CRAZY!.  On top of that, I want a baby so freakin bad.  My girl had a baby girl last week and i cried bc it wasnt me.  CRAZY #2.  I need a phys doctor 4 real. LOL.

Anyway, I am going to start working on the body to get tone.  I lost my ass and i have no chest at all.  I want to cry.  I am a size 36A now and that really sucks.   Can u say IMPLANTS? Yes, I am going to get C size. the rest of the body doesnot have too much skin hanging as I thought would be there so I am somewhat pleased.  The body image problems are starting to go away and the head trips are beginning.    WILD #1.

I have two great guys in my life that are guiding my journey down this path.  WILD #2 It helps me alot.  Having such positive strong BLACK men in my life makes a difference for me.  

The attention has slowed down a lot and I am 50/50 about it all.  It is weird because of the type of attention coming my way.  

ANyway, I am going to ride the roller coaster at Magic Mountain this weekend with no problems.  HA HA.  I never could fit the Batmen ride so that is my first stop.....

Hey OH friends.  stay focus, stay sharp, and remember skinny is the future....


  

I got my divorce papers in the mail today and the judge signed the papers so on August 16(my father's b-day) I will be single and Nicole Bibb again.  I am so freakin happy i want to go to disneyland....

I wish California did not have a 6 month waiting period but that is the law.  It sucks dog meat.  

Anyway, i think i am 170 pounds now so 20 pounds to goal.  I notice i am gazing and need to get back on track.  There is no way in hell i am going to gain this weight back

Well, the inner healing has started with a good friend taking me to church.  GOD has giving me the strength to heal from my marriage and rebuild my self esteem.  I am a diamond in the rough  with many edges to shape.  The weight loss is so dramatic that I cannot keep up with the emotional ride that goes along with it.  It is quite a roller coaster as many of you know. 

Anyway, things are going ok and I find myself cheating at times but then I think of the life before surgey and I know I will not go back.  It is not worth the it. It is like being in prison.  No one can understand what I mean besides OH family and Thinner times family.  We know what is it like to be trapped. 

GBP has freed me.  I wear a size 12 now and starting to get into size 10. It is hard to shop but fun too.   The summer is going to be great. I have to find ways to hide the skin especially my legs.  I thought the bat wings would borther me more but no. It is the legs.  I lost my breast too. I was a size 42C and now a 36B.  YIKE.  I knew it anyway. No one in my family has breast so I have to deal with it.  I am getting implants no question about it....

Oh well,  The divorce is in process and I feel good about it.  I have days where I wish it could work out for us but I know that it never well.  That is what keeps me focus on getting the divorce.  GOD knows I still love the fool and always will.  He alter my life so drastically that it is hard not too.  I know GOD has another person out there for me.  He will cross my path soon.  Well GOD bless and stay focused.

I am truly amazed that I can fit some size 12 pants from Gap or Old Navy.  The shopping experience has been quite eye opening these last few weeks.  It makes a world of different.  I had a man hella 'God Damn'  this morning as I walked down the street.  You have no idea how that made my day.    I turn and told him thank you so much. You have no idea how that comment made me feel.

I feel great inside and out.  I think I am going to get a tatto that says.  Gastric bypass save my life......

Pls what are you waiting for...  do it

Well i weighed in at 194 pounds today. WOW... I have lost a total of 103 pounds today and i will never see it again.  I am so happy with the weight loss and cant wait to see the rest leave my body.

Well i finally did something really stupid.  I was playing video games and got excited because i won and jumped up and the gum went down my throat.  No success in getting it out either.  The doctors said hopefully it will pass. I hope so too.  I can not imagine having the claw down my throat at all.  Yikes..  No more gum for me.

I need to start exercise too because i can see little weight loss now but it is still a dramatic change for me.  This whole journey has been quite a ride. I wonder if I'll be saying this 3 years from now.  

My biggest thing now is getting pregnant after 18 months has passed.  The available father list is 3 strong now so we will see if they are still gamed when the time comes.

Well fellow OH friends, stay focused and keep the fat off..

 I have been enjoying the new found attention and weight loss.  The weight is melting away and I feel great.  I have surpassed the regrets and now know this is the best thing I could have ever done for myself.  I am going thru self relflections and building self esteem every day.  I can't wait to get rid of my ex and start a whole new life for myself with a new body.   I get side track on days and remind myself that the journey is beginning and to stay on point.  I have lost friends and fight battles with jealously everyday.  I can't believe how life long friends can change when you become a new person. You would think they would be happy for you but instead say stupid stuff like ... "You dont need to lose any more weight" . So I respond with WTF..  Go jump off a bridge. 

I am only 47 pounds from goal and have been blessed with no complications, no hair loss, or no vomiting.  I just need to thank everyone on OH and ThinnerTimes for the threads, supports, and help since I joined.  I really could not have done it with out you all.  I read the threads each day and know this surgey saved my life and yours.  I pray everyday that a new person gets approval to change their life. 

To all those just starting the journey, please stay focused and positive because it will be the best gift you can give
 yourself....

Happy New Year everyone

Well it is time for a new me..  I feel confident again and strong.  I want to be free to explore new things and new relationships.  I only have 53 pounds more to lose and find myself struggling with exercise.  I get tried quick but I am sure it will get better with time.  I am still uncomfortable with the extra skin and i want to have plastic surgey ASAP but know I need to wait.  

I found myself wanting attention more and more each day and hope this doesn't lead me down a path of destruction in a new relationship.  I am trying to be self aware of my feelings.    

Overall I am finally happy that I did the surgey and how it is changing my life.  Only my Obesity help friends and Thinner times friends know the feeling of being free from FAT!!!!

I need to get focused again and start my vitamins and exercise.  One can lose their journey and mission in the excitment of the hugh amounts of weight loss.  I am now at a point of struggling with that. I know my mission will never be over because this is a lifetime of change. Oh well I can do it.  The joy it has bought me WOW.....

Thanks GBS for making me feel health, happy, and beatuful again.