Lisa Friday

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My MIND has not changed at all! I still crave and desire ALL the foods that I ate PRE-RNY!!!

I go to the fridge, I go out to eat, I drive by my favorite Fast Food Restaurants, and I still WANT the exact foods that I ate prior to my NEW 'tiny tummy'! So, I order what I hope is the BEST thing on the menu, or I eat the same foods that I ate before, but, I eat only tiny amounts of it...

Why can't they do a labotomy (SP?) at the same time they make your tummy the size of your thumb?

I am really struggling...

They were RIGHT! My Doctor and his right hand, "Beverly", told me and all of his patients,'after the initial BIG weight loss right after surgery, that people, typically, lose 2 lbs per week'.

So, when does this 2 lbs per week end? I wonder: if I was exercising regularly and eating even better, could I up that 2 lbs per week to 4 lbs or more per week????

I think I will try exercise FIRST to see if I can't make this weight loss go a little faster...

SO-that is my goal for this week-SWEAT!!!

"Bicycle":  Ready or not, HERE I COME!!!!

Goodbye Cherry Pie!

Thanksgiving was 5 weeks post-op for me... I was down 23 lbs on NOV 23rd...(at one month post-op).
I will weigh tomorrow morning on Dec. 1st to see how much (if any) I gained over the holiday.
Well, I tasted almost everything that my mother prepared, but, I only ate a tiny amount, and I seemed to handle everything, until on day 3 (Sunday), I decided to eat a tiny slice of Cherry Pie with a dollop of Cool Whip! O NO! The pie, coolwhip and I spent the next 25 mins in the bathroom over the potty and then the next hour in the bed thinking about running back to that potty... Never did throw up again, but, it was almost an hour before I felt good enough to join my family and the festivities!
So, moral of my story, "Goodbye Cherry Pie!" I really will miss you.

Well, I woke up this morning and low and behold I weighed 210.6... 
I am finally down 20 lbs...60 more to go! 
          
GO ME! GO ME! GO ME!
I cannot remember when I weighed 210...
I feel the "ONEderland" coming in my very near future!
          
WOOO HOOOO!!!!!

Well, I have been dying for a Doctor to finally acknowledge what I have KNOWN for 4 yrs... YES, Lisa, you DO have Cushings Syndrome...the very rare disease that we kept testing your urine for for years... YES, Lisa, the blood test that you insisted we give you did come back highly positive, so high that we thought the lab performed the test incorrectly and made you re-take it with our highly sophisticated lab that never makes mistakes and it, too, has come back identical to the first- Highly Positive!

So, Lisa, now what?

Well, they now have to do research on my levels to decide if they think the tumor is on my pituitary or adrenal gland... then, they do imaging on the gland to see if it is operable. If so, removal. If not, medication?

Great! Another surgery... Number 6 in 5 years?

OMG, the real kicker here for me at now, 23 days Post-Op is the fact that once the tumor is either removed or suppressed with meds, my weight should just fall off and I should be my post back surgery self again...

I have been 'sick' since I left her office.

Well, no, I have been in absolute denial... I immediately left her office and began and 8 hours later had almost finished all of my Christmas shopping. Needless to say it was a VERY expensive and exhausting day... but, 'retail therapy' must have been what I needed, because since then, I have now completely decorated my house's entire interior (not my porches or doors, because I think my neighbors would think I had lost my mind for decorating for Christmas on Nov. 14th) and wrapped all of those presents that I purchased on Wed the 11th!!!

The worst part of this, is that I have permanently changed my anatomy. I am just shocked that I finally got my diagnosis and because every Dr. I have seen over the past 4 yrs has told me Cushings was entirely too rare for me to have it... They told me if I would just lose the weight, that every symptom would go away slowly, and I would be back to normal (if I would just lose the weight). Well, when you have Cushings, the tumor produced sooo much cortisol, that it is nearly impossible to lose weight.

In fact, I wonder if that is why I have only lost one lb in the past ten days. From day 12 to day 22, I have only lost one pound... That, by the way, is incredibly frustrating and very depressing.

Well, thanks for reading my rant. I will deal with this on a day by day basis...I wonder what other huge projects I will accomplish while I am recovering from this shocking news?

Tune in next time and see what amazing 'feats' I have overcome...

Take care and God Bless you ALL...Lisa

Well, it's official... I am an "Insomniac"...
I have only slept about 2-3 hours a night since I have returned home from the hospital...  Is that insomnia? Is this a side-effect of RNY?
OR:
Am I just addicted to my OH CLUB?
I love being on this site.  I find that the time flies when I am on here! I get on here and I look up and realize that it is 1:04 am (that is what time it is now)...

I feel like I am not losing as much weight as I would if I were sleeping more.
Does sleep affect weight loss? If so, I desperately need to get this under contol...

I am not napping during the day, so, I know that I should be tired... but, I am just wide awake right now!

HELP ME SLEEP...

Well, I woke up yesterday and decided I was going to take EVERY vitamin that my NEW body may EVER need!

I had designed a schedule, printed it out, posted it in my new "RNY PANTRY" and began shoveling them in-
on the hour, every hour!       NOW I AM SOOO SICK!!!!
I knew that I did not feel right last night. 
I was so exhausted from having had very little sleep the last six days or so....
I have had almost ZERO sleep this past week because I have been so addicted to this web site!!! HA/HA!!!

Anyway, I woke up this am with a throbbing head ache... (I never have them) and totally sick to my new 2oz tummy.

The saddest part of this is:
I was on my way today to go to the OH Event in ATLANTA!!!!
Now, there is no way I can go! I feel rotten!

So, I have just sent my precious husband (my designated Atlanta driver) on to work.
My daughter, Waverly,  is now getting to "sleep in" (probably until noon)!  She was coming along on the fun Atlanta trip and was getting to miss school. She was overly excited because I NEVER let her SKIP school for FUN... (She will be so sad when she realizes her Atlanta shopping trip has been cancelled)...

SO, THE MORAL OF MY STORY:
I guess I need to "chillax"!
I need to take my time with all of these new changes in my life.
I have been killing myself trying to get in all of the protein and H2O that I will EVENTUALLY require, not today 2 weeks post-op!
I need to realize that my NEW 2oz tummy cannot even begin to handle the #'s of vitamins that I will EVENTUALLY need.
My impatience has really hurt my tiny, very vulnerable pouch.
I am just going to need to let it heal completely prior to my inflicting my new vitamin/eating regimen on it in full force.

UGGGGGHHHHHH....What was I thinking?

Well, I think I finally have a schedule for all of these vitamins we now get to take!
I feel like I will be popping a pill, making a protein shake, or trying to find a sugar free, low fat,
low calorie, high protein food that I can eat all day long!
I still take many pain pills, depression pills, etc., that also have to be on my new daily schedule!
But, I have worked on it all day today, and I just printed it off, and hung it up in my NEW Bariatric
Pantry... So, I now feel like I have a clear cut plan!!!
I am so anal that I feel LOST without a schedule or a plan... ahhhhhhh much better now!

I am taking 2 Actigall pills everyday to help prevent gall stones. I am taking them at night (opening the capsules and pouring them down the back of my throat, then chasing it with a protein shake)...

I am having diarrhea bouts late in the night and early am.

Is the diarrhea from all the liquids I am taking in, or is this still the normal "poo" for 11 days out of surgery RNY?

My 500 to 600 calorie a day diet is also making me a little sluggish...  

I am needing to up that protein I bet!  I ordered 6 sugar free syrups from DaVinci??? last night and some other protein things off different bariatric web sites hoping a change of flavor/pace might make me last on this full liquid stage for a few more weeks!

Other than these little issues, I am really excited to be 16 lbs lighter this morning!

Today, my precious daughter, Waverly, (almost 15 years old and frighteningly skinny) ate an entire order of McDonald's French Fries (one at a time) sitting next to me in my bed. I stared at every single bite she was taking. I am NOT hungry at all (10 days post op), but, I really had "head hunger"... I never thought about how my body would be forever changed, but my head/ thoughts /mind still has 39 years of overeating/ bad habits/ and poor choices in it. I guess it  will take a while for my mind to catch up to my new 2 oz tummy!

I wonder if I will ever have another McDonald's french fry again, or will I just have 3 fries at a sitting (like Weight Watchers teaches- the 3 finger rule!) OR will I be able to eat a small order of fries 3-4 years from now? I know that I need to just concentrate on getting my protein/water/vitamins in right now, but, I love a PLAN, so I wish I had a "crystal ball" to see my future.

I have not "dumped" yet... thank goodness! In fact, I feel pretty good. My 6 small incisions are still quite sore, and some of them have that little round "ball" under the scars. I have read that they may get bigger, but that they will eventually go away. This site is so informative!

Well, thanks for letting me vent/confess my staring at my "french fry eating" child... she had no idea of my obsessed looks. I want my family to not feel funny eating around me. They should not have to change their lives just because I CHOSE to change mine!

Right?