Trying to get a grip...

Dec 25, 2008

I'm still out of control. Tomorrow is a new day and I'm going to try my hardest to get back on track. This is my daily goal...to get my head out of my ass, get back to the gym and stop eating crap.

I feel like I'm in failure mode and I have to get out of this mindset or else I'm going to be in a shit load of trouble mentally AND physically. I have to get into a routine and just stop all this fly by night eating. Dumb...so very dumb.

UPSET
New topic: I found out that one of Eric's girlfriends bought him a new computer. I'm hurt and upset. I know that we talked about the whole, "I'm here and you're there" thing BUT I'm still pissed and jealious. Xmas is a bad day for me because he left me 2 years ago Xmas Eve...I should just wash my hands of all this bullshit and move on. I just can't play these games anymore. I just want someone to love me as much as I love them...is that too much to ask? Maybe I should just get back together with Robbie or just be alone. Being with Robbie is like being alone anyway, but at least I'll have someone to hike with occasionally.

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