A Hard Valentine's Day

Feb 14, 2009

Robbie chose to spend the day with his kids, not me.
Eric never even picked up a phone or made an effort to text me at all.

I am so done with being disappointed all the time. I don't really know what I was expecting anyway...I mean- who the hell am I? I'm not young, hot, sexy- not even close. Why should I expect ANY attention what-so-ever?

I always hear- "I love you. I need you. I miss you..." but what else is there? Is there a relationship with anybody right now? I mean- a real one? No.

I think the media has warped my mind and I expect some kind of storybook romance or something. I'm a realist. I know that doesn't really exist but maybe someone could actually look my one for once. Say they're gonna do something for me and follow through. Make a special effort for me JUST once.

I always go out of my way for everyone in my life...maybe ONE day I'll get someone in my life that will do the same for me.
...or maybe I'll give up and become a celebate hermit.

WEIGHT LOSS:
none in 3 months..This sucks

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