Coming Clean and Starting to Blog again

Mar 12, 2009

Hello, my name is Rocky and I'm a food-a-holic...
(Hi Rocky)

I need to confess that sometimes I binge. I do it when I'm stressed and I know it's wrong. TG I haven't gained any weight but it's just a matter of time and I know this.

I am lonely. Worried about money. Worried that Im going to have to move because I cant afford my rent. Hoping that when my car comes out of the shop that it wont need to be fixed again. Really dont like my job very much. Afraid that when I'm old, I won't have money to take care of myself.

I look like a deflated balloon and want plastic surgery but can't afford it. If I won the lottery- that's the first thing I'd spend my money on. Then I'd buy a house...but that's a whole other post.

Did I mention that I'm lonely? I dont need a man to define me...I just want the right man to share my life with- is that too much to ask?

I'm mega worried that I'm gonna reverse this thing. I don't want to fail. I'm afraid to fail and I ONLY (did I say only?) have 60 pounds to go. I want to get there. I really do!

SO now I have to make a game plan and stop this shit. I have SO much work to do mentally and I know I was told over and over that I would need to have my head examined but...who knew I'd need it THIS much!

I almost feel better now...almost. Cross your fingers or pray for me- whatever you think will work cuz I'm teetering on the fence my friends.

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