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It's Easter Sunday, here is pic of me and my girls

so I had a great day today even though I'm dealing with this new issue, for the past few weeks my rt thumb area has been hurting but since i hv arthritis i don't pay attention to it. well it kept getting worse and by yesterday i could not move my thumb at all without excruciating tear causing pain. i am in pain alot you guys know that but this was the most incredible pain i cant even explain. from the joint in my thumb going up to my elbow. i couldn't move my hand or grab anything, the difficulty in even going to the bathroom made me call urgent care and thank God they did call me back and told me to go in. so i have de Quervain's Tenosynovitis, and since i cant take nsaids the doc gave me a cortisone shot and i bought a thumb splint i have to wear for 3-4 weeks. this is awful. ever try to put on nylons w one hand? can't even brush my teeth w my rt hand or comb my hair. dr said complete rest or it will just get worse. i am typing with my left hand and 1 finger on my rt. yes,i shouldn't be typing either but got to cmmunicate. i really need a break! but it didn't hamper my need to go get my dress yesterday (even though my hand was throbbing) and i went to  church today, pain, splint and all. :) so the days will continue,  this is just another thing to deal with.
excuse typos! as for eating on holiday no biggie went to lunch at PF Changs with my daughter had a little bit of here and there chinese food. then dinner was a little bit of pork chop and some potato salad. I'm doing ok with food but my weight is stuck stuck stuck! wedding is coming up have to fix this problem. i picked up my bridesmaid dress yesterday so here is how i look when i tried it on at Davids Bridal - desperately need proper undergarments!!


 

MY NEW BUDDY, TEDDY P.
So I need my weight to move.. just move. I finally saw it go down to 171, and then swing back up to 173, sometimes 172. It's so annoying. Anyway a few girls on the group decided to do the 5dpt and I figured what the heck let me try and get ahead of the carb monster and maybe boost my weight. So yesterday was day 1, and it was hard not to be able to eat solid food. I messed up by having some pizza crust but other than that I did water, protein shake, soup, juice, yogurt, pudding, jello and coffee and that was it. obviously I was very hungry all day, having not eaten solids since Saturday night. It is now Monday afternoon and so far i've had 2 cups of coffee, a soup at hand, water, sf pudding and 1 string cheese. so really no protein so far today. then some more soup for dinner. luckily tomorrow I get to add foods (tuna, eggs, salmon, and tilapia) all things I like and can survive on and I am allowed to eat it all I want, well as long as 1 cup or 4-6 ozs and I have to eat it in 15 mins. tops. I usually eat pretty quick but with "real" food I sometimes have to eat slow cause I get full quick, which is the entire point of doing this 5dpt to get your pouch to remember that full tight feeling from the first time after surgery. believe me I do still have that tight feeling, a few days ago I ate a piece of pizza too fast and I was in agony, it was really bad, I felt like the pizza was in a whole piece and it was tearing my pouch. whew, had to lay down and massage my pouch to try and get some relief, I couldn't even throw up. won't do that anymore. so I am off today cause since tomorrow is holiday I decided to make it a 4 day weekend. I'm sitting here browsing the before/after pics and reading stories, it gives me inspiration and ideas too.  my little doggie is sitting with me, boy can he sleep. anyay soon I'll have a snack of liquid heaven and then take a nap. then later on I'll take Teddy for a walk. TTFN

So I should have blogged yesterday but was busy and I forgot it was my 8 mos po and I didn't weigh in the a.m., so I weighed in today and was down to 171!! YAY - 91 and a whole heck of alot to go.  2 more lbs and I'll be overweight! YEAH can't wait for that BMI calculator to be nice to me.  So I'm down just 3 lbs. since my 7 mos po man that sucks! I have to move my butt alot more.  I just got a lil dog so maybe I can drag him outside to walk with me and get this weight moving.
I'm still in pain, have to talk to gastro dr next week for endoscopy. constantly hurting, nausea, pain, now heartburn is back. not a happy camper. somebody has to fix this! okay back to work.

So I am now almost 8 months post op and the scale is still moving but so slowly, in 6 weeks I've lost 6 lbs. even though I must say it seems like it's never moving but it is just slow.   I was stuck for the past 3-4 weeks and even went up 1 lb. for the first time since surgery, but lost 2 lbs this past week so now I got to kick it up and keep it going down. I'm gonna be a bridemaid in May and I just fit in the size 12 dress I have to wear but I need to lost 5-10 lbs. to be a bit more comfortable in it. (see pic below)
 

So I went to Florida the first week of March, my sis invited me on her vacation, I got 3 days notice! but I had a great time, got a tan, had my hair done (colored, highlighted and cut) and just got a break. sat on beach for a few days, some days were too cold to go on beach but I had fun. i'll post pics. I am still having stomach pains, gallbladder ultrasound was normal so I don't know. going back to surgeon tomorrow. i really dont' feel well and I hope they fix it cause I don't want anything going wrong now after being okay for 8 months. anyway drama at home, my son and his gf broke up, so gf and my grandson moved out and I just miss my lil boy so much, I think that's wearing on me too. making me sad. i saw him yesterday but he was distant and only wanted his daddy. he's walking now and is so cute I sure am upset that I'll be missing his daily life after being with him for 11 months of his life. now him and my granddaughter are dividing their time between parents, it truly truly sucks!
anyway, next week is my 8 months post op, I'll post again.

So yesterday was my weekly weigh in and for the first time since surgery and weighing myself every wednesday I had a 1 lb gain! it's not alot but I was so surprised cause I've never had a gain from 1 week to the next. so it's not all bad news. I went to Ross yesterday to shop for my vacation and I bought a size 10 pair of jeans and a size 10 pair of capri dockers. woohoo! i knew I might fit in 10's cause my 12's were loose and baggy. I also tried only my daughter's size 12 cocktail dress this week, halter top mind you, and it zipped right up. of course the girls were way too exposed and of course cause of all the weight loss they were hanging to the knees! have to life and tuck everyday but in a halter it was laughable. so this is what's up. my sister from nyc called me monday and told me our sister was too sick to go with this sis to florida so she invited me! so i'm flying out to tampa tomorrow and we'll be staying at a condo in Clearwater, right on the beach. I AM SOOOOO EXCITED. can't believe it. i truly need a getaway so this is perfect. i am hoping that the change of pace, different foods and alot of sun and walking will unstall my weight and get me refreshed and started over. my sis goes to tampa every year to watch the Yankees at spring training.  we'll be going to an exhibition game on tuesday, can't wait.

anyway, on my health front. I went to see the surgeon today and she suspects I have a bad gallbladder (which was 110% healthy before surgery!) when she examined me she said it could be gallbladder or an ulcer, so she's ordered a lot of tests and we shall see. in the meantime since she thinks maybe ulcer she gave me 2 meds to start taking. if tests show its gallbladder then it has to come out, no other option and no waiting until it gets worse. my new surgeon said that the  surgeon that did my surgery should have given me Actigall after surgery but she doesn't like doing that. I am now seeing a different surgeon because mine is on maternity leave.  so we shall see what happens. ttfn

So today I am 7 months out. As of weigh in this a.m. I am down 88 lbs. 34 pre and 54 post. That's 4 lbs. less than 1 month ago. it's gone slow that's for sure. I try not to think of it too much or I get very let down about it.  I am still having pain, couldn't sleep last night because I was uncomfortable.  I emailed Kaiser yesterday but nothing yet.  Had lunch, overate so was uncomfortable and got some pain but nothing major, I don't think it's gallbladder because it doesn't go nuts after I eat. the Pain is more all the time kind of pain, my chest wall seems to hurt too. the pain can get very intense and bad but if I move, massage and try to move the pain away it gets better, so who knows.

Up until this odd pain started I have felt pretty good. It's hard to stay on track but have to do it. I had a piece of brownie yesterday, didn't hurt me or make me dump, of course if I had dared to eat more I would have been sorry but I don't do that. If I have a little piece of something sweet that's it cause otherwise I will get sick and why should I do that when I know darn well that my new system doesn't like sugar.  anyway here is a new pic of me, taken today and I put 2 more pics in my album 

so last week on the 14th I had eaten some white rice w/an egg and got sick to my stomach lots of bathroom trips and pain. so this morning I get up and start drinking my cafe and bang, i made at least 5 trips to b/r in agony, terrible pains. I don't know what the heck did it. I haven't gotten sick to my stomach since surgery. my IBS disappeared when I had my surgery and the only couple of times I got sick to my stomach was because I ate bad stuff, twice was b/d cake, and it caused a semi dumping. but last week it was just rice and egg which I've eaten before, and this a.m. I hadn't eaten yet.  I did have a pork chop last night so I thought maybe that was the cause but don't know why the delayed reaction.  i've been having some weird pains and stuff happening inside lately and I just don't know what's up. I had a little pork chop today and so far I feel okay we shall see if it hits in the morning. I was having some pb w a slice of bread and started getting some aches on my right side, don't know what that is about. I am praying to my God that my insides aren't starting to act up, I am 7 months out and I don't want things going wrong.  I know folks sometimes have gallbladder or pancreas issues when they get close to the year, or hernia and obstructions and lord knows what else, I'd be real upset if any of it happened cause except for the times I eat the wrong thing or too much and get ready to explode I've been feeling fine. Today when I held Isabella to my chest/stomach area something hurt me, it was like when I pressed her to me I felt a pain and then I was trying to find where it was hurting but it wasn't easy, so I really don't what is going on in there. I'm actually sitting here with some discomfort and I don't kow why I just had 1 slice of bread with pb and a couple of crackers w/pb. no reason to be in pain. very strange things going on in there. we shall see.

so it's weigh day today, i "officially" weigh in on Wednesdays, so lost 3 lbs. this week. pretty good so far have lost 4 lbs in february. March 7 I have to go pick out my bridesmaid dress and i'm hoping to be down another 6-10 lbs. and hopefully by the time the wedding comes around on May 30th I'll be down 20 lbs from what I am now, that would be real close to my goal of 145 which is the high weight for my height but last time I got as low as 146 i looked really thin and was wearing 8's and big 6's so i think that's good enough. of course my body may decide i need to be healthier and allow my body to keep dropping weight so we shall see.  i've been eating crackers this week so that isn't too cool but not too bad. have to cut it back down cause my body does better without the carbs. i think it's the lack of food at home that has me eating whatever I can and crackers are inexpensive and something I can get in a bigger size for the entire family. we ran out of rice so that won't be an issue :) also no more potatos so can't make those. and we've been out of bread for awhile so haven't had that. should be doing mainly proteins anyway.
my neck/headache felt quite a bit better today, have a little headache now but it's this darn cold weather. my chest hurt a little this a.m. but it's not so bad as it was doing. it's really a struggle to deal with this weight issue and still have so many aches and pains that keep me from doing more things.  i do feel better don't get me wrong but sometimes i feel frustrated cause i don't feel 100% - been taking my vitamins and the extra d prescription dr. gave me still have a few weeks to take that pill and i hope it helps. in May I have to redo my labs to see if the extra vitamins helped up my deficiencies. we shall see. i do look thinner and folks make comments but I am so flabby, lord without jeans things are flying all over. not a pretty site. okay well that's all for now.

well down to 175 lbs. today. I weigh myself every other day or so, but i don't count the weight unless it sticks for at least 2 days.. so it said 175 yesterday and today so that must be the weight for now anyway. I've been struggling with the same couple of pounds for a couple of weeks. very frustrating, as many of you know very well, but it moves eventually. of course it would move way more if I actually moved my butt more, I've actually been home since last Monday after work. tuesday and wednesday my neck arthritis was aggravated and I had been suffering with that pain in my neck and the headache is causes for a few days and then it finally got too much and i stayed home from work on tuesday and wednesday. Thursday was a holiday, friday I had vacation day and then it's a long weekend. this tuesday coming up brittany is having her 4 wisdom teeth yanked so I'm staying home to watch Bella. so i won't be back to work until wednesday. so i've been sitting at home since tuesday, haven't gone out, been eating okay.  the food supply is kind of low so I've been eating what I can.  yesterday I had some white rice with 1 egg and suddenly was in pain and had to make a few runs to the b/r.  then later on in the night i had like this heat rush and heart palpitations and just felt shakey don't know why. i've been having some weird pains in my stomach, and right area so i'm not sure what's happening but i'm just keeping an eye on it for now before i call the doc.

a few minutes ago I was cleaning the floor, bending down wiping the tile and when I got up my chest is in agony, I guess I pulled something inside but now i'm sitting here in pain. the pain is behind my chest wall must be a muscle gone wrong so we shall see.  the weather is so crappy, it's been raining all week and will continue to rain for the following week. it's rain season so no big surprise. i think that is what is aggravating my neck arthritis which of course inflames my neck and causes the headaches. so I've been pretty miserable for the past week. 

apparently the news is reporting that the stupid governor has come to some sort of agreement with the union about cutting the furlough days down to 1 instead of 2, and we lose 2 holidays but get 2 floating holidays. very odd negotations but oh well. this may mean that instead of an almost 10% pay cut we will get an almost 5% paycut which is course is much easier to handle but still stressing me out. i think the stress is causing me the added stomach pains and added neck pains.  and my not eating properly, all of it sucks right now.  i reupped my eharmony script to see if anything happens in that area of my life so at least I have someone to hang out with sometimes instead of always being home stressing with all these kids here all the time I get pretty tired of not having a life of my own but that comes with the territory I love my kids and I now have 2 grandbabies to love and they all need help so for now I deal with it.

still would be nice to have a "buddy" to hang out with and chill.  on a nice front mariaelena called today and we have an appt. set up to pick out our bridesmaids dresses, so so odd to be a bridesmaid at my age but okay, exciting. soooo glad i'm somewhat slimmer, i'm hoping I can lose another 20 lbs by wedding day which is May 30th that gives me 3 months to drop some more weight. we are wearing teal and I hope silver sandals. melina said she'd help me pay for my outfit cause obviously I can't afford it.  anyway that's the update for now :)
Be blessed in all you do.
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