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Having a great day.  Had a few cravings today but just for a moment.  Lost about a pound and a half.  264# today.  Feeling so good.  Bp good.  Blood sugar pretty good.

Still feelin great!  More swelling gone.  Weight 267.4# this am.  I think I am going to keep eating what I am for two weeks then try adding back some things but anything that makes me feel bad; I am eliminating for good.  Basically right now I am eating fresh or frozen fruit.  Not in any certain quanity as much as I want.  My craving are gone, bingeing is gone.  Life is good.

I feel better that I have felt in weeks!!  I lost 6 lbs of fluid in one day!!  Yesterday I weighted 275# and today I am 269#.  I am currently just eating raw fruit.  Now am I going to do this forever, no I don't think so but I want to eat things that make my body feel good!  I am excited about regaining my health.  I want to feel good about myself.  I want to be responsible for my body because I know that will please God.  Let's see what tomorrow brings!

** Reflections **


Last night as I was sitting at work looking at picture from the past. I saw myself when I had lost all the weight and I was small for the first time in my life. I realized that that was the only time I was happy with my body. It was the only time that I did not feel the need to apologize for my weight. I was healthy and off of all medication. I felt great. I want that again. I want to feel good about want I see looking at me in the mirror. Ok so, what is it worth to me? It is worth giving up foods that are not good for me. I am showing signs of Diabetes and I don't want that label officially. I want to eat to live not live to eat. I want to know that I am in control of my body and that it is not ruling over me.

I know this is going to be a journey and probably a long one but I want to be healthy so that I can be here for my girls and my hubby.

I am looking forward to a time when I can buy clothing in regular sizes again. Shoot I am looking forward to any smaller size.

Do I think that size is important? Well if you are healthy and feel good about yourself, then no.

Paul declared under the inspiration of the Holy Spirit that we as believers are temples of God. Our bodies have the Spirit of the Living God in them. And so we should treat our bodies with respect like we would our own church that attend. I can not expect to abuse my body and expect God to heal the sicknesses that I experience because of that abuse. That is foolishness. I reap what I sow even in my own body.

I pray that I stay focused and keep my determination for change. I want to live a long healthy life and it is God's will for me to do so but He does hold me accountable for what I do to myself.

Pray for me and I will pray for you as well.  

Well the slim-fast thing worked well until two things........one we went on a marriage retreat where all meals were furnished!  and two my blood sugar is still up and I got frustrated!  Well I am still 275#.  My sugar is still doing crazy things.  I think I am going to do the daniel fast.  My body LOVES it.  I always feel wonderful.  And some say that it will help blood sugar levels or even heal them.  We will see.  I have to do some planning before I start the fast.  But today may be a good day to start.  Hum......we will see.  Be big losers OK!!!

Well it's been a long time..........gained more weight after pregnancy.  I love my friends but if all the people you hang out with overeat and are fat, it is real easy to join the crowd.  Anyway three days ago I started Slim-fast again and I am excited about it.  I started taking walks with the girls when ever weather permits and that has been great.  My blood sugar has been spiking again in the mornings since about two weeks after having the baby.  I have to do something about my health I do not want to add Diabetes as a new health problem!  Anyway I am 275lbs that is what I was when I had the baby!  I am down about 10lbs since starting the Slim-fast so it's working.  I like not having to think about what I am going to eat.  Water and a shake at breakfast then water and a shake at lunch.  I have dinner with my family and a snack before bed usually fruit.  I have not been hungry and I have done a pretty good job controlling my portions so one day at a time.  This is Slim-fast day 4, I'm @ work and it's 2:30am.  I will try to update again soon.  Hope you all are well!  Happy Losing!

Happy Holidays!!!

It is great to be back again!!  I am happy to welcome our newest addition:  Jaelyn.  She came on Nov. 20th.  Weighing in at 7lbs 4ozs and 20.5 inches. 



And I weighed in at 286lbs the day I delievered and 263lbs after delievery so I only gained 17lbs during the pregnancy!  PTL. 

I want to get back on track and get to a healthier weight.  Hope all is well with you guys!

Ok people I am very sorry it has been a long time.  Well I definitely fell off the wagon a long time ago and gained a lot of weight.  Then got PREGNANT!!  Are you serious.  Super shock for me especially at that weight.  So anyway I am now 284lbs!!!! and 6 months pregnant!!!  Oh well I am trying not to gain alot of weight during this pregnancy.  I was 269# my first doctor's appt and I have gained 15# so far, not too bad.  I am definitely looking to get back on track after I have this baby.  This is gonna be my last pregnancy so I think I can get focused.  I hope everyone else is on track.  Blessings!

I am very embarrassed it has been a longgg time.  Well I made it threw the fast I was on, felt awesome, dropped 32 pounds, then went straight back to all my bad habits.  When I was younger I looked down on others who had various addictions.  I don't anymore it is hard to break any addiction or cycle of abuse including food.  I hope all of you are well.  

On a lighter note the pastor of my church called another Daniel Fast to start this year it was from Jan 2 - Jan 22.  My husband and I participated in the fast and I was so proud of him.  He had never done any kind of fasting or diet changes of any kind before and he made it until the end.  He had MAJOR detox symptoms but he stuck with it.  I was very proud of him!

But that fast is over too and it is time to focus again on heathly habits.  Identifing the bad habits and replacing them with good ones.  God bless each one of you this year.  Make good choices!!

Well, I am on the last day of my fast I feel great!  My tonsils are healing, well the areas they used to reside in are healing.  Not really looking forward to breaking this fast because I have felt so good and because of the fasting and the tonsillectomy I am down 31 pounds.  My bp is down so I am going to pray about how I feel and try to break the fast slowly over several days.  I hope that everyone is doing well.  Pray for us we are traveling home for the weekend.  God bless all of you!  Happy losing!