Too provocative???

Feb 27, 2013

OH I'm backkkk....and officially in a size 14.  I started my journey at a size 22.  It's hard to believe that I am officially in a size 14. I will say that I've been fighting the size 14's simply because it looks provocative and I've never done provocative before.  I like the look but am concerned what others will think.  The suits I've tried on actually fit my body, they are not too big or so tight that I can't sit but you can definitely see my curves so I'm concerned.  I think the concern comes from never having curves or seeing curves under my clothes so it is a new and different experience.  My psy says that if I am concerned that means I am not trying to intentionally look provocative, in fact, the fact that I am concerned reveals that the clothes are probably not as provocative as I think because a provocative person would not question how provocative something was.  She also pinpointed that I can not tell what a person is thinking so stop worrying about what people can be thinking because I'm not a mind reader and there is no way to tell.  I think that was the best advice and I am actually looking forward to wearing my 14's, after all, I'm putting in the work for this body and all my hard work deserves to be shown off sometime--as long as it is not provocatively intentional.

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