A Reality Check

Mar 14, 2012

While I am not usually obsessed with the scale, I have been somewhat more "weight focused" than usual. My jeans seemed tighter and my belts are not as loose as they were.
Bottom line, I haven't journaled my food, nor been as serious since last June. I have gained about 8 pounds from my lowest weight and am really nervous.
I have seen other WLS folks get careless and gain a ton of weight back. In fact, my sister is now back up to 245! I know now and I knew pre-surgery that I still have the same head, the same brain, the same addiction, the same issues.
I MUST get on target to keep this weight off and re-lose this 8 pounds, plus 5-10 pounds more.

You know, you get used to feeling bad when you are fat;
then,
You get used to feeling better after WLS and you get complacent.

I need to have a reality check and remember how it felt to sweat like a pig with very little exertion at all. Remember how a wet bra and panties felt year round (from the constant sweating)!
I need to remember the pain in my knee and how tired I was all the time. I need to remember how it felt to have to go to Lane Bryant, Avenue or the big Momma shops to buy clothes and still I didn't look OK. I need to remember all that I have gained and determine NOT TO GO BACK THERE....AT ANY AND ALL COST! Please God help me!

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