Michele S.

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SO I thought I was doing so good wiht the blood sugar, today I ate my normal breakfast, good lunch and by 2:30 my bloodsugar was 71.  Although most people might consider this normal, it is not for me - I know when I am getting low and decisions get hard to make.

So I ate some food - too much - and am now approaching 2000 for the day (ok so part was from the cream cheese but it gets a little tough some days to work wiht this.  I tlaked to my dr. he is not sure, even talked to my momn, nurse who has delt wiht this in other most of her married life - she does not get it either.

So today I screwed up - tomorrow is another day.  Atleast I am not in the manic phase at the moment to bring me down further.

What to do?  I guess start again tomorrow.

Michele S.

Ok so I was nervous about this Dr. appt.  since the acid reflux is still around off and on.  Dr. agreed that we need to continue to keep an eye on it but we will procede with caution.  So yep  a 1cc fill today.  It is amazing how much you forget about the stages of eating in 2 months.  I am still a little concerned I mean I love the progress I have mad but if it means causing damage to the esophagus I am not sure it is worth it.  HE will be checking that after the next appointment.

I am really worried about mom and Kris.  They are both have ing problems, mom is having a procedure that we hope will help her leg heal but it has been tried before and wiht the mix of meds I am a little concerned.  Kris now needs surgery on her foot, the tendon is too tight.  He back only felt better for a couple of days and her migrains are back.  I don't knwo how to help or what I can do.

I am also a little concerned aobut some of my current issues - health wise- back pain, still tired all the time, uniary problems and most joints are aching.  I will se how things work ou ti nthe next couple of weeks.  Also have had a osre throte for the past coupel of days, I am not sure if it is flu, singing too much or acid reflux again, oh, possible side effect of meds?

Oh well I am tired, again, and am going to bed!!

Ok so the headaches are still here, yep stress makes them worse but non stress does not get rid of them.    Work is very busy now with testing and scheduling for next year.  lots to get use to.
kind of sad tonight.  I am hoping it is jsut the long day I ahd and nothing more.  It was kind of tense today at work.
I did have my eyes checked on Friday and the Dr. and I agree that even though the change in perscription could contribute to the headaches at the end of the day, they are not the cause.  I ordered new ones, I hope they look nice.  I am almost blind wiht out them and had a little trouble picking new frames.  They looked nice on the table and I could wear the womens sizes !!! YEAH!!!
Oh well I think I am goign to bed early and see if it help my head.  I am also going to take a pain pill, hopefully it helps.

So no one knows why the blood sugar keeps droping, the diet plan I am follow looks good to the NUT and my PCP says it has nothing to do with the meds I am taking,"just chek it 2 hours after every meal if it is below 70 suck on a hard candy (regular ot sugar free)"  He laso has no idea why I could exercise regularly in December and now it causes extream pain after word but we are trying a new med - topical since I can't take the NSAIDS.

A little blue tonight, frustrated too.  I feel like I am goin to gain my weight back.  I havn't but I have too eat so often and am hungury all the ime (a positive reslut of the thyroid meds according to the doctor).  I am trying to stick to the plans but then my sugar goes low and I have to eat again.  It is like I am being pulled in two directions between conflicting rules.

Oh well I am going to take a shower now and go to bed early tonight.  My head really hurts tonight and my knees too.

I still seem to either eat way too much or let my sugar go low in the evening.  I am not sure if it is I weight too long between meals or I am not eating the right amounts at the right times.  On the days everything works I end up eating 1500+ and it feels like I am eating all day. 

I mean I know what happened today.  I had a meeting at 11 (thank goodness I eat a small snack at 10:30)  we did not get out of the meeting until 2:30.  By then I was a little squishy.  Haveing trouble focusing etc.  Finally got my lunch by 3:00. 

Oh well I will figure it out with help.  I am meeting with my NUT again on tuesday, if I get out of work on time.  I am going to ask to leave early so I can get there in time.

I also have a support group that night.  All on my birthday.  Oh well I will see the NUT then take my self to dinner or go read a book.  Then the meeting.  It is an hour away so I am not comming home between.  It will be a long day!!!

Saw Dr. Means today.  He was ok wiht the weight loss but not happy with the exercise, or lack there of.  I keep working on it though.  His only suggestion was an elipitical,  i found that they hurt in the past but if I  can find one to try I will try again.  I am alos hoping that my PCP will get me the exercises to strengthen my knees some.  Until I can do more I will continue to do weight lifting and yoga when I can.

Dr. Means did add 1 cc to the band today, I am hoping the success wiht the acid reflux continues, a little scared it will not though.  Espically it started before I even got to work today.  His theory is if we are not going to use the band as it ws intended then eventually I will start to regain. or atleast quit loosing.  He also felt that the 5-6 small meals will help and I know the added fluid does!!!

Frustrated taht I actuall gained 4 lbs in the last week and a half.  I will continue to look at my diet and journal, might ask the dietitian to help next Tuesday.  I nkow it i s only 4 lbs but it is a gain at the time I am altering my diet habbits.  My mom - God love her- said whell it happens to all of us but I don't want to let this go and get worse or for it not to be  the diet but the meds I started a week ago and not get that in check as well. 

I have also been having a little trouble with getting my right eye to focus today, I hope it is just today, it is really annoing and a little scarry since I ahve not had this as a problem before today.  I know I am due for new glasses but to happen over night is a little strange.  I did make the appointment though.  I am sure it will come up wiht the headaches any way.  I am surprised it has not been mentioned yet.

I am considering going to the Y and see aobut a membership, just to see what they have and if it is worth it.  I can not do a whole lot now but I am trying to build up my strength in my knees so I can.  I know it is huge for my physical and mental health.

Hopefully a good day tomorrow!!!!

Ok so I have been having pretty good days and moods since Saturday.  Today not quite a good, I am hoping a temporary set back.  I feel like I am sliding back to where I was a couple of months ago.

Work was ok, but not what I had hoped for,  It seems the further I go, the more behind I get.  I did however get part of my desk cleared and got caught up on 1/2 the papers, talked to students about graduation and we got our second day of testing students done.  I guess not a bad day, actually pretty good now tha I loook at it.  I think the headach is just getting to me now.

Even counseling did not help today, I just was frustrated.  I feel like I ahve lost all the progress we made.  Oh well, maybe the second time out will help.  Try again!!  We set some new goals. and a short term plan.

After that had a church meeting, did not get to go home first.  I had a salad and went to the church for a two and a half hour meeting, oh my.  It was necessary but long. 

Oh well, tired and need to get to bed before I have to get up tomorrow. 

Well woke up with a song in my head and things went really good.  I did not get to go to work, felt kind of funny this morning (no not ha ha funny) so stuck close to home, I think it is the new meds but I don't know which one.  Around 1 I went to the goodwill store and bought 2 pair of slacks and a vest for $6.00  (they were a 24 pants yeppieee!)  I have discovered that dress slacks are more forgiving if it is a flowy fabric.  The heaver fabrics get big quick and look big.  The others hang nice even if they are a little big.  The vest is probably a size too big but it was a buck and looked nice, I seem to be into vests lately.

Then I went to the craft store.  Did not buy much looking for specific type of yarn.  Did you know they make yarn out of bamboo now'?  Yep they had that but it is hard to find 100% cotton yarn!!!

Then went to meet some old friends for dinner,  We sat and talked for 5 hours!!!  Laughed so hard I could not breath and it hurt after a while but we just kept laughing!!!

Stopped at the grocery store for yogurt (on sale) and there were new flavors in my favorite brand YEAH!!!

going to bed now, it is almost tomorrow and I am exhausted.  Today is the first day in close to a year I felt not sad!!!  I am not sure if it is the drugs (probably) or me but it was nice (except for the funny feeling this morning!!)

Saw my PCP today.  The thyroid test came back in normal range but one was on the low side compared to my pre surgery results.  With that, the hair loss, dry skin, mood swings, cycle changes he thinks it is an underactive thyroid, probably.  So I am starting another medicine.  It will take 3-4 weeks to see any change.  At least it is someting.

The blood sugar is not going well.  I tried what the nut told me, calcualted it all out, planned my day and was still low at dinner time.  I get really weapy as my pcp puts it.  feel like crying for any reason - very frustrating.

Ok so my medicine cabinet is now full and my knees hurt so the exercise is not going well.  My pcp is going to send me some exercises to help strengthen the knees.  I hope it helps I really want to do more.  I feel like I am letting myself and my surgeon down.

Ok new twist.  I woke up this morning at 3 with a pain  around my port that hurt so bad I could not breath.  It been sore since I fell on tuesday.  I ask my PCP, yes it is workmans comp but I wa there today and really don't want to involve another dr. right now if I don't have to, he thinks it is just the mussels,  he also said if I had dislodged the port, I would have more constant pain and woudl have know at that time.  It will just take time.  We will see, if it does not quit soon I may go anyway just to get it officially recorded.

Ok so no dr apt next week but need to make one with headach clinic, another neurologists.  I hope he is a little more personable than my othre one.  She may be one of the best but we really so not mesh personality wise.  I suppose the 3 month headach may have something to do with that.

Hope we get our good weather this weekend.  I want to clean the salt off the car and get some stuff done at work.

Oh well it is getting late, more when I get any info.

Michele S.

Ok so I can't take the first drugs she perscribed and the new one often causes weight gain, like I need that!  "that is why we didn't start with it" according to her.  I told her if that happens I was discontinuing the drug, she was not real happy.  Still thinks the headaches are from stress, I don't totally believe that.  She suggested yoga and relaziation techniques, I already do that!  She then suggested a headache clinic in Pgh. and wants me to come back in 3 months.  Well I made the appointment,  we will see if I keep it.  I am not sure, if she is just going to say the same thing and not listen to what I say, why go.  I am really ont use to a Dr. who does not listen or can't explain things to me so I can understand them.

At least my nutritionist seemed to help me understnadt the diet and hypoglycemia a little better I think I go back on the 16 to see my surgeon so we will see what happens between now and then.

Well started the day by dumping my dacaf coffe on the floor of my car, should have known it was not a good day for a dr. appt.