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sucks and is so hard to do. why cant things be pretty and fun all the time? stupid reality!

lady who cut me off on the 101 in hollywood tonight. if i ever see your inconsiderate low grade self again i will take you down and give you an ancef shot without lidocain, i will put vaseline under your door handles, i will fart in an elevator and when everyone looks i will point at you, i will tie a sandwich to your back and make you run down maine street (ok i know, that last one was not very nice but i just really need to vent) ok i feel way better now...that is all

graveyard shift - i hope u never get any oral or any other kind of sex EVER! this sucks. I am so stinkin tired i feel like a chubby zombie. i want to punch someone...hard! LOL really though i am way too tired for violence. well actually i could probably kick someone in the shins hmm...

I am too tired to sleep. wtf? and my house is spottless so now what? maybe i will go harass gaylene like usual...he he
p.s i'm freakin freezing and have no one to hold me-well at least i have a grip of blankets...but some petron would help better he he too bad i dont have any :*(  LOL ok i am gonna try to go mimis now
hasta !

my cuzn had given me 4 pairs of size 18 jeans cuz she said that they cut in at the waist and she didnt fit them. well when i first got them i tried them on to see how much more i needed to go. well that was like 2 months ago and i couldnt get them around my hip area...at all. well tonight i am wearing them! I am so happy. I even called my Mom to tell her LOL. ok i am done now.

i just wanna say to anyone who may be reading this and just joined this site, the ppl here are some of the most friendliest,open-minded and accepting ppl you could want to meet. I have met some really cool ppl here. We have fun together and can talk for hours like old friends. You can talk real and not be put down or judged. Especially in the cali boards. everyone there loves to hang out and go places. There are a few ppl i talk to all the time not just here but outside of here. I think its cool that eventhough i just started the walking group, we were talking the whole time without any akward silences and the time flew by. I could have kept going but it was wayyyyyy cold. well i hope everyone else has as much fun as i have been!

so i am down 151 LBS since surgery and almost 200 since kaiser options classes. I feel funkin fatastic! i walked for almost 4 hourse straight today and i didnt even break a sweat. Before every 5 mins i was looking for a bench. I fit on rides now and i dont even have to turn sideways to go thru turnstyles anymore. I am almost  like a regular person. My little cuzn told me today "look i can get my arms around you!" LOL i thought that was pretty funny cuz she is very very petite (about 5'2 and 100LBS) I said thanks girl. but i still felt kinda defensive (but i am working on that). My pant size is down to 20 when it was 34 and my shirt size is 14/16 from 34 so i am still very happy. I hate that i do this but i notice that i am always comparing myself to others-like if i see a big girl i think is she my size? but when i ask whoever i am with they say something like no dummy u r smaller. I guess i still cant quite grasp what i look like. and when i take pics i just want to stare at them cuz i cant believe that is me. My one cuzn (sorry i have like 40 of them and we are very close) got tears in her eyes when i saw her the other day (and we are by no means an emotional type of family-well except anger and laughter ) she said i looked wonderful and she was so happy for me.  but on the flip side i ahve had 2 family members make comments like "well pretty soon i will have to go on a crash diet cuz u r gonna be smaller than me" wtf? why the hell would someone say that? and furthermore to be truthful they arent even close to thin so what the hay? whatever i am just gonna keep on doin my thing and try not to worry about how others cant cope with change. ok well thats all i have now but i'm sure i will find something else to ramble on about soon....

so today i was waiting in my truck for my cuzn to come out of the bank and i guess i was staring off nto nothing playing with my tongue ring when the ball popped off. So there i was like a dumer azo sitting in front of my rear view mirror trying for like 5 mins to screw the ball back on. I felt like an idiot-because i know i looked like one... oh well it wasnt the first time i looked like an idiot in public ...right? LOL

ok i dont get it??? how did i go up in bra sizes? but wayyyy down in shirt sizes? i mean dont get me wrong it rocks but it doesnt make sense. oh well it is so nice to put on a d and it is full! but i still am looking forward to my plastic surgery...in a few years.

i went and got pierced tonight! yayyy i am so happy. I love tats and piercings. I got my tongue and nose done tonight. I let my tongue heal up because my then boyfriend now husband hated piercings and tats so i also stopped the tats but now i just want to do what i want to do. I am a grown up and when i am old who cares if i have tats or piercings cuz i wont be in the running for miss america anyways right? and to really keep it real i am not even close to being in the runnning now so funk it lets have fun!-although i have to say that i keep sniffeling and that kinda hurts my nose post. whatever i am too punk rock to care j/k LOL really though today piercings are so common that no one really gives a mierde so why not do what u want right? what do you think?