13 day post op

May 26, 2009

Well, i am getting that water down nicely (3liters) but i notice my pee is still fairly colored, i will have to talk to dr s about this on Thursday. I am doing my best with the suppliments now, i am getting a little more then half the multivit, i am getting at least 1 of the 2 iron (some days both), i have been taking my D, and yesterday i got 3000 of my calcium in (only 1500 behind)...this is progress and i am pleased with myself...That said the protein is still a major problem. i am thankful vitalday posted to me and i am going to go in there today and try some very thin protein (nectar) and something thin and flavorless to add to crystal light. see which one i can get down (GOD I HOPE 1 WORKS).
i went to a BBQ yesterday and it wasnt too hard. I drank my water, sat and visited my friends. i relaxed listening to music, i went for walk. i did eat about 1/8 oz beans (refried not baked) which was like 2 bites for me. i did it to get my iron down, it works and i dont feel bad. the hamburgers looked amazing so i just left the area where they were. the only other problem for me was the home made from scratch carrot cake with cream cheese frosting...i couldnt leave because it was a birthday cake for a friend, but proves to me that bakery goods are still my problem and will probably always be. it scares me, i wanted it so bad, but i felt proud, i didnt sniff it, didnt lick it didnt anything and the feeling passed (they ran out of cake actually). I am not sure how to safe guard against this in the future other then to bake my own SF versions and bring. this would totally go against my surgeons advice of like no carbs ever again (flour, etc). but i need to find a way to work and life my life without drooling on those eating, i also dont trust myself to go a life time like that, i think eventually i would give in. i dont feel bad about that, its my addiction and i need to find a way to work around it. sure, hopefully someday i wont be so fixated on food and would be able to pass on principal alone, but i doubt it, this surgery didnt change my brain and though i hope to change it myself, like all addiction there is relapse...
i will just have to figure this out!
i have a little more energy but not much motivation, i go for walks but find myself sitting because in truth i am tired, just not brain tired.
i have my 2 week follow up on thursday and am excited to see my weight loss to date. i am nervous about my infusion tomorrow...
well, not much else for now...oh but my yeast infection wont go away so today i am going to take a diflucan!
I have a strange rash that i need looked at too but i will just have dr s look since i see him thursday (2 days from now).

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