Bye Bye Old Weight Loss Ticker...

Jan 24, 2010

I need to say good bye to my old weight ticker as it no longer reflects my new journey...but I'm posting it here to remind myself that I did it once, I can damn well do it again.  Like some warrior wolf-goddess hunting evil poundage until I annihilate it all completely.  RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWR!!!!!!!  But until then...bye bye pretty weight loss tracker.  ***waves bye bye***




The good news...my NEW weight loss ticker is already happily on the move for my pre-op diet.  Today, I'm starting full liquid protein shakes.  It will be the hardest part of this journey as I've already experienced it once.  With a husband that loves food and as a woman who loves to cook him food, I'm starting cold turkey on any special treats made for him (as I know I'll sample here and there).  

I realize how lucky I am.  I've read that people have waited and waited for their surgery...and here it is, 8 months after having the lapband removed, I'll be sleeved.  I know how wonderful Dr. Trotter is...as he called my insurance company, had a peer-to-peer discussion with the doctors there that figured my BMI was too low (I was 23 lbs to goal weight).  I've watched what I ate, more accurately, I watched myself eat and eat and eat until my BMI was high enough to impress the insurance company. Although impressing them wasn't the goal and I didn't gain the weight back to have the other surgery, it's the only positive thing that has come back from becoming obese...once again. 

Another thing I've realized on my happy dance back to fat-land...I can't lose it alone.  Tool or not, I need the support of other people understanding what I'm going through.  I need all of you wonderful people.  My husband is wonderfully supportive, really he is...but does he get it?  Only now, for the first time in his life is he actually overweight (in part due to me and not controlling what I ate).  He's been my partner in crime these last 8 months.  We married back in August of 2009 and since then, he's gained about 60lbs.  I know that my tool and my concentrating on what I eat as I have in the last two weeks have been helpful to him...he's lost 5 lbs.  So, overall, I need to read these posts, these struggles that my new peer group is having.  The struggles as much as the triumphs.  

Not at all my usual style of blog...if you've read any of my past ones...no funny jokes, just rambling thoughts as I gaze thoughtfully at my banana supreme protein shake (and can't help but think that a bit of vanilla ice cream would go lovely with it)...

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