Recent Posts
Went for a run on one of my favorite path and there is a spot with a high level bridge. this path is right on the water front. Seconds before I got to the bridge area a guy jumped and landed on the pavement and no one one would go near him but me. I i work in the health care and I could not do CPR. Deep down I know he was gone and he was a mess. I dealt with 911 along with keeping people back and losing my cool with a person who had phone out wanting to take pictures.
That is why putting the running shoes on is hard for me right now. I put them on and have done a run alone put so many times i had to tell myself to breath.
I can not get it out of my head what i saw and I feel so bad because i did not try to do cpr. I had no gloves i could not touch him. if you saw what i had seen you understand.
I pray that he knew that there was a person who stayed with him and who cared and he was not alone.
I have named him Rob because right now he has rob me of many things.
Highand - so sorry to hear this - please be gentle with yourself. I do hope you are working with a counselor or group to help with the PTSD. It can be immobilizing. Sending healing thoughts your way. Do what you can each day and try to move forward.
Monday - lesson and fencing 3.5 hours
Tuesday - Olympic lift
Wedensday - fence 3 hours
Thursday - try to get some lifting in, work schedule is wonky
Friday - Lift if I can't on Thursday and maybe some yoga (had to take a month off Pilates)
Saturday - Fencing competition
Sunday - Fencing competition
Keeping all of you who are having trouble in my thoughts.
Keep on losing!
Diana
HW 271.5 (April 2016) SW 246.9 (8/23/16) CW 158 (5/2/18)
Thats tough Highland..what caused the PTSD?
Week 8 of rehab started today. Wish I could say I was pain free but sadly Im not. I hoping my surgery was the right move. I know it takes time but Im getting nervous.
Height=5"4' Age=49 RNY=04/17/2015
HW=285, CW=205, LW=197, GW=195
My exercise motto-Further or faster!!!
Hope everyone is doing well. Sorry I have not been around. A lot has happen to me and I am now dealing with PTSD and i am taking things day by day. The worst part of the ptsd is it is affecting my runs. I put the shoes on and and will sit there and sit there and sometimes i can go and other times off they come. I have a race at the end of the month and it will be a tough one. It takes me for ever just to leave my place
Monday swim
Tue run with friends and yoga.
wed strength training
thursday run
friday not sure
saturday work
sunday run
i hope to do these things but who knows.
So glad your rehab is going well - my weeks have been screwy due to a new work schedule - long story. But I got in 3 hours of fencing this week (had to miss Wednesday due to a meeting), lifted twice this week and did Pilates. Not one of my best weeks, but I can live with it. Hoping to get a yoga class in tomorrow.
Keep on losing!
Diana
HW 271.5 (April 2016) SW 246.9 (8/23/16) CW 158 (5/2/18)
I am currently 7 weeks out of surgery. Rehab is going well. I have walked a few 5ks in the last few weeks. This is the only thing I am cleared for as of right now.
Hopefully everyone is getting some of this fall weather.
Height=5"4' Age=49 RNY=04/17/2015
HW=285, CW=205, LW=197, GW=195
My exercise motto-Further or faster!!!
I just posted that movie on our runners FB page. I dont think its out here but looks really good. That actress is really funny.
Glad you're back..
Height=5"4' Age=49 RNY=04/17/2015
HW=285, CW=205, LW=197, GW=195
My exercise motto-Further or faster!!!
Late to the game this week -
Monday - Fencing lesson and fencing
Tuesday - Olympic Lifting class
Wednesday - Fencing
Thursday - Olympic lifting
Friday - Pilates and upper body
Saturday - probably some kind of yoga
Sunday - tournament -
Hoping everyone has a great week!
Keep on losing!
Diana
HW 271.5 (April 2016) SW 246.9 (8/23/16) CW 158 (5/2/18)
Rehab is no fun! Keep it up :)
M - BodyPUMP class (and this ended up screwing up the rest of the week because OMG I still hurt all over and it's Wednesday..)
Tu - running, yoga stretching
W - yoga at home since I ended up taking something for the pain and shouldn't drive
Th - running, yoga stretching
F - BodyCOMBAT class
Sa - BodyFLOW class
Su - running, yoga stretching
VSG with Dr. Salameh - 3/13/2014
Diagnosed with Binge Eating Disorder and started Vyvanse - 7/22/2016
Reconstructive Surgeries with Dr. Michaels - 6/5/2017 (LBL & brachioplasty), 8/14/2017 (UBL & mastopexy), 11/6/2017 (medial leg lift)
Age 42 Height 5'4" HW 319 (1/3/2014) SW 293 (3/13/2014) CW 149 (7/16/2017)
Next Goal 145 - normal BMI | Total Weight Lost 170
TrendWeight | Food Blog (sort of functional) | Journal (down for maintenance)
Hi all!
I got to see Brittany Runs a Marathon yesterday. I had a lot of trepidation going into it. I was worried it would be full of fat shaming and have the typical plot of "screwed up woman loses weight and her life is now perfect." It was neither of those things.
It felt very real and honest to me. A number of the conversations Brittany had with non-runners felt like they could have been pulled verbatim from conversations I've had. Specifically the "I'm running a 5k" met with, "You're running a marathon?!"
I don't like recommending things, so I'll just say that I'm really glad I saw this - you might be glad to see it too!
Update:
I haven't been around much since I moved at the beginning of August. While the move was expected, the speed at which everything came together and needed to happen was NOT expected.
I'm finally starting to feel settled and getting my fitness schedule on track. Too many fitness class options is not necessarily a good thing!
VSG with Dr. Salameh - 3/13/2014
Diagnosed with Binge Eating Disorder and started Vyvanse - 7/22/2016
Reconstructive Surgeries with Dr. Michaels - 6/5/2017 (LBL & brachioplasty), 8/14/2017 (UBL & mastopexy), 11/6/2017 (medial leg lift)
Age 42 Height 5'4" HW 319 (1/3/2014) SW 293 (3/13/2014) CW 149 (7/16/2017)
Next Goal 145 - normal BMI | Total Weight Lost 170
TrendWeight | Food Blog (sort of functional) | Journal (down for maintenance)
