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I have been so bad about updating. I will try and do better. I had my stress test and other heart tests and they came back fine so that is good. I had an updated sleep study as well as a next day test for narcolepsy. That came back fine, my cpap setting is good at 8. i am going to be getting some new equipment for it soon. My AIC test was a 6.5, which is elevated, but nothing to stop the surgery from happening. I am slightly anemic but I was able to still give blood the other day so it is not real bad. The only thing that is not on track is my weight. I have gained about 10 lb since my consult and I have to lose it before my pre op testing on Sept 13th or he will not be happy with me.

It is hard because I am at the point where I am panicking about the surgery and want to have all the foods I wont be able to have for a while it ever, but I am also supposed to be losing weight. It is hard to deal with and I feel like the surgery is coming up very fast.

I will do the best I can. After all this is why I am having the surgery.

I have 1 month until my preop testing, and I wanted to have lost some weight before then. That is NOT happening. I feel very out of touch, i eat and eat. I don’t want to think. I thought once I had a surgery date it would help but it hasn’t. I am convinced that this surgery is the only way I will ever be able to lose the weight I need. It may not work, I may not make it. But I am convinced that this is the only way for me.

Wow my profile looks nifty now I did not even know it had been painted purty. Things continue to move along. My sis Kim is gonna come up and we found cheap tickets for her. I have my pre op testing on Sept 13th. I am currently swimming, well treading water about 3 days a week and have lost about 10 lbs I went up to 357 during my last supper syndrome. So I am back around 345. I can tell it is working out my body so hopefully it will be enough. I ate really badly this last weekend lot of eating out. I am looking forward to a day where I can’t eat so much, to where I don’t feel so out of control. I hate walking in the mall and getting out of breath like this weekend. I hate sweating with any effort and being the sweat fat lady. I sent a thread to Jason about relationship problems that happen after WLS and he sent me the sweetest email.

I am not going to leave you :) It is about so much more than your weight. It is about you and who you are and it is about desire. I want to be with *you* and if you change we will change together, there is something in the core of us that makes us want to be near each other. Your weight has been caused by your scars and while the effects are going to go away and you will have to face them, they will still be there, they will still make you who you are, just in a different way.

It is you I love and you I always will, if you drop the weight I can just love you longer :)

He is so sweet. I am ready for this. I am glad I waited I was not ready before.

I am really quite bad at updating maybe that will change the closer it gets. I have a date Oct 3rd. I am still trying to lose some weight ahead of time. I went to the pool yesterday by myself and once i was in the water I was in heaven and did not feel as awkward. I wish my BF would go with me but he hates pools I don’t know why? My mom and I are in a feud right now because she wants to come up for my surgery and I told her no. I don’t want here there for many reasons and I think she should respect them but of course she is torturing me about it instead.

I am very frustrated. I really wanted to have this surgery this summer but that possibility is looking further and further away. I called again to the Clinic and they said that my chart is still on the surgeon’s desk to be cleared before going to scheduling. The last I heard they were scheduling into Sept. I feel like I want to hurry up and have it to save me from myself before i get bigger.

I am taking all kinds of things to try and feel better, I have been very fatigued lately. I am taking prenatal vitamins to try and get some iron and I am taking an iron supplement since my doc said that I am anemic again. Taking Vit C, went back on asthma meds to make sure i am getting enough Oxygen and that my asthma is under control. Taking digestive enzymes and good bacteria as well.

I am also taking my meds religiously as well as using my CPAP machine.

Jason has been real good about trying to get me to walk. He is a godsend.

I guess I will just have to keep waiting.

I called Barix today and Vickie told me that they got the approval letter and it my chart was sent to the surgeon. She says that I should get a call in a few weeks to schedule. They want the results of my endoscopy first but I have that Tuesday so it should not take long.

I have decided that for now until I have a date, I am going to NOT BE ON A PLAN. All that does is frustrate me and make gain weight. I am going to go to the gym to get my body in shape, improve my lungs and such, screw the poundage. Once I have a date I will do the liquid diet to lose some prior. But I am sure if I do this other stuff i will lose anyway.

The interesting thing is that at this point I am not afraid. I am ready to start. I am ready to lose this weight. God speed…

I am so freaked out!!! I was just approved here is the letter.

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Dear Mrs. Natalie Nicole Lewis,

Congratulations!!! I have good news to share with you. On 5/26/2006 I received a response from your insurance company that they are approving your prior authorization request for surgery.

The next step in the process to scheduling surgery is to send your information to our Benefits Verification Department. This department will do a thorough and complete benefits verification to determine what your estimated out of pocket expenses will be. If these costs exceed $5, 000 you will be contacted and provided assistance in making payment arrangements. If these costs do not exceed $5,000 then these expenses will be reviewed with you on the day of Pre-Admission Testing. This process generally takes five to seven days.

Once Benefits Verification is completed, your information will go to the Group Practice. Someone from the Group Practice will contact you to verify that your chart is in order and inquire about outstanding pre-operative clearances. Once all ordered pre-operative clearances have been received, reviewed and approved by your Surgeon you will be ready to be scheduled.

Again, congratulations and thank you for choosing the Barix Clinics program and I wish you continued success in moving towards the solution to your weight problem.

Sincerely,

Jada J.

Insurance Coordinator

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I am not sure what happens next. But at least I can get to the next step.

Well the insurance company still has my stuff and i am still waiting, I will probably call again today I know they know me by now. I met with my PCPC yesterday she is very supportive and she said that everything that was sent to the insurance company looked good and she would be surprised if i didn’t get approved. I had gained a lot of weight after I decided to have the surgery I think i got up to 353. Jason and I did the quick start and I lost 5 lbs. I am trying to slowly do some more. I am hungry all of the time though so it is hard. This morning I had grits, a cottage cheese and pineapple cup and 2 100-calorie snack packs and some chocolate. No doing so well today. Must walk when I get home.

Jason and I have started a quick start diet to help us lose a few before we start our plan. It helps detox your body from the sugar and preservatives and it helps speed up your metabolism a bit so when you are on the plan you have better success. Needless to say we are both punchy already. This morning we had steak and eggs then cantaloupe for a snack, lunch we had pork chop and snow peas, more cantaloupe for a snack. Tonight we will have rib eye steak, asparagus and a salad. Needless to say I want some chocolate NOW!! I really need to develop new and better habits so when I have the surgery it wont be such a shock.

We went for a walk and he asked me how I envision my life being after I have the surgery? Now I really don’t have any hobbies and food is the only way i soothe myself. I could not answer his question because I HAVE NO IDEA. Is it bad not to be able to picture it?

Well Barix now has all of the information they need and they have sent it to my insurance company she said it could be about 2 weeks before we hear anything. I am nervous but what i am more nervous about is the fact that I have gained some weight since i decided to have the surgery. My eating is out of control, I have some ideas why but not completely sure. I guess now it is just a waiting game.