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ahhhh another sucky rainy day at the jersey shore.
today i will arm myself with good healthy food.

oh my god i cant even believe how much i blew it today..this is def why i need a strong tool to help me keep on track. i had no will power on my own to turn down cheese cake at work. after i ate it i felt sick as usual when i pig out on stuff like that. i had dinner planned out however that went to pot aswell. we ran around all nite long getting everything i need for thanksgiving and ran into mcdonalds for dinner. yeah can anyone say looser. by the time we where done with everything i was starving and wolfed down a chicken sandwich (crispy) with large fried and a rasberry tea. now im sitting on the couch feeling like a stuffed pig!!! 

work. im armed with my shake and a piece of fruit for breakfast and a healthy lunch. i will not give into the temptation of eating all the goodies everyone brings in especially on mondays. be back later to report how i did.

so today is a new day and im armed with good stuff...i already had a pear for breakfast and soon will have my protien shake. for lunch ill have a atkins bar and some more fruit. and im planning a lite dinner. ive been on vacation for the last week so tomorrow its back to work. this is going to be a challenge for there is tons of goodies at work all the time. i might aswell get used to the word no thank you now before surgery so im not tempted after surgery to have a bite or two. this is a bad habit i have to learn how to break. now i wouldnt say learning bad food habits is because of the place i work at oh no i learned all these way before worked here, however it has lets say fined tuned how bad its gotten. they have programs like ww at work that almost all the ladies i work with have joined and i have not and ive watched them go up to the meetings and weigh ins every week and come back down to the office and eat cake cookies and anything else that we have in the kitchen thats bad for you and while i dont go to the ww meetings im sure in there with them eating all this crap. anyway im rambling and i have things to do today.
be back later or tomorrow.

so the day after i wrote that i was determined to write in my blog everyday i skipped yesterday ...loooserrr lol
anyway yesterday was busy. daniel (the love of my life) and i where very busy. we cleaned the whole house and back yard together. i rearranged my cabinets in the kitchen, cleaned out my spare bedroom so someone can actually sleep on the bed when they come over lol and i did all the laundry in the house. i even washed the yorkies and now they too smell fresh and clean. well atleast my boy zozo did for a bit until he found some stinkies to roll around it. what is it with boy dogs. my little girl is a real girli girl. she loves being clean. i started my day again like ive been doing for the past 3 days with a piece of fruit and a protien shake..i actually forgot to feed myself for lunch and had dinner. dinner could of been a better choice but it was late and i was starving by then. so it was baked fries and pork for dinner. i did however pass on most of the fries and ate more of my meat. i really noticed the difference with skipping lunch because then later that nite i was starved again and i really blew it and well i dont even wanna write what i had for a late nite snack while watching daniel play a ps3 game. ill type the first letters of it . c with h. oh boy not good.

to write in my blog a little everyday so i dont forget what this was like and i record my whole journey. from what i got yesterday at the meeting, and from the nut and phsyc. its important to keep track of what your doing and eating. today was kinda tough..it 6pm and by now i would of consumed soooo much more food and bad food at that. im not sure how well im doing because im trying to figure out what that color wheel is all about in the health tracker but i feel different today eating well and drinking water all day. im hungry but im hoping that after the surgery i wont feel this much hunger.
i feel lighter if that makes any sense cause i know im still at my weight of 268 but i myself feel good today eating this way. i had some energy which i normally dont..guess watching that protein intake makes a difference.
anyhow im going to go with a little chicken tonite for my protien and add some veggies. drink more water and thats it for today.

imformative and i got to meet some really nice people. the group meeting was led by the nut and physc. i like them both very much. some of the goals that where achieved by the people that where there where amazing and inspiring. alot of questions went around and alot of information was shared.
my next meeting is in december and i look forward to seeing everyone again.
 

so today was information overload for me. I saw the physc doc, nutritionist and the surgeon. i filled out a stack of paper work that took me forever to get through. i sat with the director of the program her at monmouth medical center for 1 1/2 hours and she was awesome. she  explained everything from a to z about both procedures. the bypass and the lap band. they do not promote the sleeve yet. not a big deal. ill go with whats going to work not the latest and greatest. the nutritionist was equally as great. she gave me a step by step process to start now so i get used to new eating habits. the physc doc was funny and put me at ease as soon as i walked into his office. he asked me what i wanted to talk about and if i had any emotional issues i was going through. i was honest with him and told him that i have gotten to this point because i formed bad eating habits at a young age and have never done anything to change them and at this point in my life its time to change. he was very supportive and told me not everyone that goes into this has emotional issues and that its not a criteria for having wls. i was happy about that and moved forward with him and his questionaire with no problems.
Last i saw my surgeon. First impression of him was good. Nice and calm. Didnt rush through anything and talked to me about both procedures. He examined my tummy and went through all the meds im on one at a time. Fortunately I do not have many issues. I take nexium once a day for the worst ageda i acquired some time ago and for that reason he explained that he felt the bypass would be better for me because sometime with the band people that suffer from acid reflux it gets worse but he said we would make a final decision after i have 2 of the gi tests he wants done. after a few more things we went over i was done and he gave me all my rx's for the blood work and tests i have to do.  at the front desk while i was wrapping everything up with the girls..i got a tentative date for surgery. January 5th is what we are aiming for. before i left my doc came walking up to the front office and gave me my first official "slap on the back of the head talk" that everyone in the waiting room told me to get used to cause he will be on my ass if i dont do the right thing lol....he said to me ...quit smoking TODAY. scared me enough to throw away the pack i had in the car (after i had my last one).

i have my appoitment for tomorrow 11.7.09 to see the doctor, nutritionist and head doctor all at once. Maureen from Dr. Boroa's office was fantastic to talk to. Tonight I go see my regular md and tell her the good news. Her and I have been trying all kinds of things to battle my bulge lol so I am sure she will be thrilled that I finally got an appoitment.
Well here is my start to a very different life!